just be happy 1st!! dun think so much!!

i guess it!!

i guess dao the thing you wanna told me!!
but i want run away tis thing i dunwan it happens yet!!
but i know you just want me happy!!
pls let me think it 1st!! i not wish it happens also!!

陪你放肆嬉闹 开场前就应该明了 
谁该买票 谁扮丑角 早注定好 
只要你不无聊 浓妆我就不会卸掉 
努力讨好 逗你欢笑 多陪你一秒 

我只是 寂寞的解药 
我也知道 曲终人该散了 

只要你开心就好 若只是你生命的配角 
娱乐过你也骄傲 
就算听你说他的好 心里对你再多爱慕 
仍是站在远处 只给你祝福 

你有权利寻找 你最适合谁的拥抱 
既然爱过 还你自由 我不哭不闹 

我只是 寂寞的解药 
我也知道 曲终人该散了 

只要你开心就好 若只是你生命的配角 
娱乐过你也骄傲


我大概懂你的意思！！

Unknown...

不知道为什么, 你送我这首歌 - 丑角！！
你是在暗示什么吗？
我不知道！！

我不想过一个不开心的 Christmas and New Year!!

Merry Christmas ^.^

wish me, my lovely family, all my lovely friends and loved friends have an awesome Christmas!!

all my love whether u hang out or stay home also be happy o!! ^.^

Working de Pokok Ru

Wondering

i wonder!?
why i tech papa use hp mini very easy..
but teach mama very mahuan wor!!
mama use hp mini like face a lot problem always need me go click tis click tat to solve the miss-click of her!
and papa is dare to use hp mini than mama!!
mama always ask how next!!
haiz!! today i keep on walking in and out of my room!!

nvm lah!!
love them, so wont blame them!!


add-on!!
haiz.. saw a lot ppl is going wat wat trip lah..  that that trip lah!!
me leh? just work onli!!
next sem break i sure need to plan some trip.. not only one!!
haiz!! study more important lah!! concentrate!!

work + watch drama-S = my life at this moment ^.^

I think i have no feeling!!

oh!! back from outside!
on the computer, on the LINE!
click gmail! cheack mail!
type F.. sign in Facebook!! 1st top new is his new!!
a guy be with him 1 month ++
know this guy since last year, in one of my part time job!
but until this year he just get my phone number!! hehe! he got keep on asking my fren about me!!
but i din care so much until tis year!! cos busy with work and study mah!!

i saw his news is in relationship!!
with who!! dunno?!
our one month + relationship, no one know! he wanna change status on FB but i reject! cos that time is the time i concentrate on my study (just start study at usm not longer onli)
accept him is a correct decision or a wrong decision?! i dunno!
cos that time i din think it so much!!
just now, my lovely fren ask me do u love him?!
i speechless!! is that because now i was thinking about himS not this guy!!

saw him in relationship, truthful say i got a bit unhappy but as his fren i wish him happy!!
a unopen relationship really can make us still become friends!!
sorry to you, if i hurt u!!
now!! i think i SHOULD have no feeling with this post!!
wish you all the best!! our happiness and sadness just only our memory!! love you, my fren!!

MISS

i miss sipadan island and mataking island too!!

第一次

第一次看到他发这么大的怒气！
第一次他愿意在我面前(msn) 哭泣！
第一次我想立刻在他身边保护他！
第一次...

1st 1st 1st!!
if he is my 1st love.. that is awesome!
but still love HIM very much!!
tis sem he really pressure!!
i knw he was happy for a moment when i get the scholarship!!
cos he think we can start over again!! but now like that als can!! but is not so good, i knw!!

haiz!! HIM, u can!! hwaiting!!
not mood to write this thing lah!!
past tense!!

♥ HIM!! kaleumen... 

Sadness

ouh.. the sadness thing not mention about me! is about sandra!
Sandra have told Kevan fren she love him.. but the answer is 有缘份自然会在一起！
oh.. Sandra sure get hurt when she hear this.. although is not hear it from his voice!
having final year study de sandra! pls dun get mad or crazy with this thing..
concentrate on your assignment and your job!!
San, i sure be with you! anything happens u can find me, i will do it for you as i can!!

Kevan is a guy so charm meh? this ppl make sandra so sad leh..
tis als the most sad i saw from sandra!! haiz... no started als sad like that..

then how was we ar.. til dunno why u get angry until like that lah!!
why?? dunno wanna chart with u tonite bo?!
i sure wont make a call to you de.. such expensive.. i dun wan..
u better tell me wat happens or why u get angry ar.. if not.. is my time to angry! "o"

A bad morning!

wake up in a early morning!
date HIM in this morning at msn!
so because of HIM i wake up early!
but today, dunno wat happens to him..
just onli chart for bout 30 min! and that is not a chart!
is an argument! tis is the 1st time we get in argument in this 2 month!
wat happens to you! mention back that thing!
u always mention that when we get in argument!!

cool down, pokok ru!

haiz..
is that something happen to you!!
u din wrote anything on blog!
tweet als nothing gv me signal!

u won't 无端端 argue with me!!

i stop our conversation cos i dunwan get so mad with u!!

this morning als no mood go jogging liao lah!
no mood plus raining als lah!!

dislike dislike this feeling! =(

on the screen!!

Flash mob on the screen!!

just share only!!

^.^

EOS 550D

woo.. rm2699 for a DSLR camera!!

the camera i love now - EOS 550D

if this wan is bought by me.. i wil vy happy..

but now.. i just pay deposit for it..

and that is not for me de!

is help ka vun deposit it!

then when he back only go collect and pay the remain..

he dare to buy it!

YENG!! =)

hope my wish and my dream can come true!

MY WISH (at this moment)
now is busy with the UNI stuff!
but 2mr public holiday.. again! i cnt sent letter to the Fajar Harapan de office!
i wish i success to move my hostel to accompany soey and make my study mood increase!
i wish soey be my roommate! wish happy with her in a same room and always happy together!
i wish my result is ok! wish my gcpa is above 2.5! if above or equal to 3.00 i will study harder and set my time smartly spend less time on FB!!
so.. from my dream..
i wish papa get toto soon!!

MY DREAM (at this moment)
my dream is have a DSLR camera!
papa say if he get toto! he will buy me a dslr camera!! YEAH!
thank you, papa!!

add-on!
i will join a dance competition on next sem! so wish my result is good so i will hv good mood in prepare dance com!! hope we are one of the top 3! 3rd place als cn!!
i hope i can join the "wen yu" dance performances!!

oh no.. love my honey back...

sorry...
i still love you..
i still need you now..
sorry i forget you!
now.. i won't love other yet..
love u.. muack muacksss..
you are not that nice but.. is ok..
and i will find a baby with u.. next year.. i think.. DSLR... pro! no semi!

love you.. sony.. sorry i get love other at the last moment..

Camera DSLR ?!

now i reali wish i hv a cam tat cn take awesome quality de photo..
i wan the photo quality like dslr de..!!
but now.. looking back my home..
last time parent ady bought a digital cam.. omlypus de.. not vy nice nia..
but that time digital cam is very expensive.. that wan is vy expensive..
and hard to use.. that wan about rm800 smth..
just now.. an shi mama.. and shi shoot me dis.. =(

then 2nd cam.. is the cam be with me many year liao de..
Sony DSC-S650 it just basic function onli.. cos it onli rm500 shj..
this cam is bought by myself de..
since end of form 4, it (he) be with me liao de..
my lao gong.. i think already hv thousand smth of photo take by him liao kua..
the latest is.. i use it to take photo in my 'ne bu guan mo'...
200 smth photo i hv upload..
300 smth hv take lah..
need to filter mah..

o.. i remember.. last time mama got bought gor gor a rm200++ de normal cam..
tat cam.. tak boleh de lah.. haiz...
i din use it als.. where is it.. i forget als liao..

now.. i wan buy L-X3..
actually wan EOS 550 de lah.. just no money right now..
but i will buy it as time go on.. and as my baki num in my account is increase.. haiz..
but.. L-X3 and L-X5 reali nice.. is semi-pro cam..
for girl semi-pro can de..
wan play pro.. just borrow from HIM lah!!

tis few day din msn with HIM.. dunno how was he now!!
is missing HIM so much now!!

haiz.. actaully my handphone de camera function als not bad..

last time de K750i.. nice... and now one W705.. nice nice..

love two of them.. K750 is my birthday present, then W705 is i bought for myself de.. (cos  5 yr din change phone, keep on use k750.. so is time to change liao lolz...)

just now got an shi papa liao..

hope he can buy me L-X3 lah.. as my next yr de birthday present.. or as i go U de present lah.. i will vy vy love them.. and i ady promise my self.. next sem need to control my time.. time for activity and time for study..

by the way.. hope USM de pegawai let me change my hostel lah.. RST cincai satu pun ok...

so i will hv study mood.. when i saw the table.. haha.. and save my time go activity.. hehe!!

hope today de dream can come true..

i love my papa and mama..

i need nice cam als because i wan take awesome photo for my life and gor gor de convo lah..

papa.. u onli subsidi me.. i als ok!! pls papa..!!

if not.. i need to go bank islam take rm700 then maybank 600 liao lolz.. =(

Innocence

Waking up I see that everything is okay

The first time in my life and now it's so great

Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed

I think about the little things that make life great

I found a place so safe, not a single tear

The first time in my life and now it's so clear

Feel calm I belong, I'm so happy here

It's so strong and now

I let myself be sincere

I wouldn't change a thing about it

This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay

This moment is perfect, please don't go away

I need you now

And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming

It's the happiness inside that you're feeling

It's so beautiful, it makes you wanna cry

=)

This innocence is brilliant,it makes you want to cry

This innocence is brilliant, please don't go away

Cause I need you now

And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

my MISTAKE

I’m still at the same place
I’m weary from wandering by your side
Even today, as I was wandering
Day has passed again and again.
Now I’m here
You know?! You know that my heart is hurting
Watching you smile makes my heart ache more

It’s my mistake for not making you love me more
It’s my mistake for loving you more than you love me
It’s my mistake for not making you love me as much as I wanted you to

How much longer must I cry ?
As I’m believing that promise...
You lied to me to wait for you
Even my greedy side (for his love) has grown tired
You know?! You know that my heart is hurting
You can’t just ignore and smile like that.

It’s my mistake for not making you love me more
It’s my mistake for loving you more than (you love me? This is my assumption)
It’s my mistake for not making you love me as much as I wanted you to.

I knew I couldn’t have you
But my heart (my love for you) just kept growing
It’s my mistake for
Waiting by myself
Regretting by myself
Loving you.

Even though my heart was aching
It’s my mistake for not forgetting you

I’m such a fool
I knew I would get hurt and couldn’t let go
it’s my mistake
Even though it could be all my fault
That’s ok. As long as you’re there…

Always…
Please forgive me for being like this. (forgive the person) Who loved you

the day after 123!!

haiz.. move hostel thing really make me kisiao...

hope the letter i type is accepted by 'pegawai' lah..

hope i cn move to RST there with soey lah...

i need to study very very hard lolz..

but the environment will make my study mood increase de lah..

i feel that this sem de result won't so bad lah.. just 3.00 i sudah puas hati liao..

2.9smth i accept als... dun wan below 2.8 ar...

not only study... i need to work hard for the dance competition...

last nite i get view the last year dance competition de video...

ok lolz.. i think i can afford it kua..

i must do it better..

although i say just join for fun..

but i wish to win something als.. just 2nd runner-up als can..

aiyo.. sure is better then 2nd runner-up lagi baik lah...

haha!!

just now finish dance com... just dance half.. the most "chi kek" de.. final onli show.. haha

yeah.. is expected we get the final ticket..

this time i join them just like watak sampingan.. not main..

but i willing.. cos love to dance and love them!!

haiz.. they dunwan upload the photo on FB.. cos the photo is our dance family de..

so upload at our family blog.. summore Sam cal us dun copy and paste on our FB!!

cos we are the unique and our family als unique so our photo, blog and dance step als unique..

lolz... sam is guy but like mama!! cincai lah..

respect them..!!

123 not only my serious and important day (dance competition)

als is ka vun de birthday! 1st time know a ppl have a nice birthDATE - 123!!

nice.. wish him happy birthday here again lah..

4th December.. planning to hang out with Sher Lan..

haha.. sher lan again!! get close with her liao.. i should say i m born on 91 de.. haha..

eh.. last time got a lot senior ask me, "you r born on 91 de hor?"

haha!! i look young ko.. seok sendiri sahaja!! haha

hang out where?

PC Expo lolz..!

wanna go buy pendrive fot papa, buy mini speaker for dance practice...

look for dslr.. if the price ok.. sunday come again to buy it!!

i wan EOS 550 but i onli got money buy EOS 500 leh..

hope papa mama can pay half for me.. as my birthday gift lah..

no gold key als nvm lah... hehe!!

2day din connect with HIM cos i busy whole day.. for the dance competition..

later go view his blog and left msg to him lah!!

♥ HIM!! kaleumen... 

不开心！不开心！本小姐很不开心！！

这几天我又开始想念他！我应该忘记他，但是很多东西令我想起他!!
有朋友说我已经爱上他，但是我现在不应该爱他？？
我不知道！ 现在我还是爱着 HIM 但是我好像也爱他！
HIM 对不起！
现在连我自己都不知道我爱谁比较多！
一个爱我多过我爱他！
另一个他不应该去爱！

有时候他的行为会令到我 feel something is possible..
i know he get the feel form me..
but he did nothing.. just like normal.. still play together..
so now i want to forget this possible..

not happy not happy!!
those the love love thing make me not happy!!

i dunwan hurt HIM, also not brave to love him...
现在我不只是想念他，我也很想念 HIM..
HIM ar.. i knw this few days u r busy with your coursework..
and i know u getting more pressure in this year.. i till care about you..
anything happens please tell me dun lie on me!!
u always protect me.. u did very much to me.. but i din!
let me do something to you pls!!

♥ him!! kaleumen... 

Just A Dream ???

I was thinking about you, thinking about me.
Thinking about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Will come back? No one knows.
I realize, it was only just a dream.

I was at the top and I was like I’m at the basement.
Number one spot and now you found me a replacement.
I swear now I can't take it, knowing somebody's got my baby.
And now you ain't around, baby I can't think.
Should put it down. Should got that ring.
Cuz I can still feel it in the air.
Saw my face run your fingers through my hair.

My lover, my life. My shorty, my wife.
You left me, I'm tied.
Cuz I knew that it just ain't right.

When I be ridin man I swear I see her face at every turn.
Tryin to get my usher over, I can let it burn.
And I just hope you notice you the only one I yearn for.
Oh I miss you when will I learn?

Didn't give you all my love, I guess now I got my payback.
Now I'm in the club thinking all about my baby.
Hey, you was so easy to love. But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough.

I'm goin through it every time that I'm alone.
And now i'm missing, wishing you would pick up the phone.
But you made a decision that you wanted to move one.
Cuz I was wrong.

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
If you ever loved somebody please put your hands up.
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.
I said, if you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.

I was thinking about you, thinking about me.
Thinking about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Would I come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

1-2-3

1, 2, 3
Not only you and me
Got one eighty degrees
And I'm caught in between
Countin'
1, 2, 3
Peter, Paul & Mary
Gettin' down with 3P
Everybody loves fuckin'
Countin'

Babe, pick a night
To come out and play
If it's alright
What do you say?

Merrier the more
Triple fun that way
Twister on the floor
What do you say?

Are you in
Livin' in sin is the new thing (yeah)
Are you in
I am countin'!

1, 2, 3
Not only you and me
Got one eighty degrees
And I'm caught in between
Countin'
1, 2, 3
Peter, Paul & Mary
Gettin' down with 3P
Everybody loves fuckin'

Three is a charm
Two is not the same
I don't see the harm
So are you game?

Lets' make a team!!

2010 年的最后的一个月

哇... 2010 年就快要结束了...
2010 年发生很多事情，我也长大了一些（应该有啦！）
白羊座的我，今年有一点变了！
我没有以前那么 -ve thinking 了！
喜欢上疯疯癫癫的过生活了！
我的好友们说我比以前懂事多了，会说话了（说对的话！）
但是，我那些 USM 的新朋友（一些）还是有觉得我开始很“chuan” （骄傲）then 后来还不会... 现在我们关系还很好呢！
为什么我给别人的影像是这样！
很多人都说认识我久了才觉得我很 nice... haiz..!!
anyway!!
在2010 年上了大学，认识了很多朋友，学长学姐等....
大学跟中学和中六不一样，自率很重要...
在大学的我，我学会社交很重要...
即使我的家乡是 Penang ，我也没有很多很多好处。只是交通，吃及有亲人的关心... 在大学的朋友还是很重要，所以我还是要跟他们 keep in touch!

• Soey - i can say she is my best friend at Fajar Harapan
• Jenny - a "stem stem" friend... best fren als.. just she always go date her "papa" lah..
• Seok Ting - my roommate! feel sorry to her cos i run away from hostel always run back home.. hehe.. but she is nice and cute.. cos she is small size..
• Jian Feng , Chiew Khim , Yen Nee , Siew Ping... all is my fajar fren.. hehe..

and the fajar boy de fren..

• kel wen, ah yap (peng khoon) , peng chuang , Orange (Yan chen), Zhang shen..

and the fajar big ppl... big power.. haha..

• Xuxu.. and his bro Chong Mun..

ar.. chong mun.. his Chinese name - 仓满 (i think i din type error kua..). so special.. seldom ppl use.. is Unique als.. haha..

• Sher Lan - one best fren in U als.. she is penang ppl.. but younger than me.. =( she born in 91.. but we not gap.. and we are in good relationship!! our friendship is getting strong and strong..
• Ling Yi (yiyi) - she is one of my best fren too.. she know many thing of my in Uni.. especially the thing about him.. we can talk many thing.. no block.. our friendship is strong als...
• Xin xin - china friends.. we getting know each other better and better ady.. fren yead!
• Chee Eng - hooi ling de fren.. when know b4 enter Uni but after we really meet face to face, we two feel like know each other very long time oledi.. she love Rynn Lim als.. haha..

not only fajar ppl fajar gang lolz.. i get know bakti ppl als.. and do assignment with them...
their reali help me a lot in assignment.. and they reali do very high quality de assignment.. love them!!

• Sei Mun - good and serious ppl! i din hang out with her but bring her go buy McD before.. love to do assignment with u.. although i will pressure cos u are very strong and serious..
• Sai Gor , Evely , chein khen, ai ai ar... and so on!!
• ar.. and one more Vivian Ng.. i know her since Pimpin Siswa.. we sleep together, bath together.. we get together more than 24 hours.. haha!!

and many many fren i get know in USM... (sorry i din list out all the name!!)

In U.. In dance group - 理华舞蹈组
through tis group i know a lot of senior, friends and gain a lot fun with them!!
senior...

• BS - he is the president of the dance group, he charm when he dance! accounting senior! starting he always cal my name wrong.. mess up my name and lee ping de name... haha.. if i din dance Jiggy i think i will not get him well.. he dunno me als.. hehe!
• Hui Ling (慧宁) - she is our vice president of dance group!Accounting senior als! i din knw her vy much.. but we have talk a lot!! no gap when we talk.. she als born on 90! i just suka always cal he hui ling "jie".. kacau her shj..
• Josephine - committee in dance group! another Accounting senior als! we din talk so much.. cos she teach another dance not jiggy.. so no chance to always talk.. cham.. she als  born in 90!!
• Cai Ling - committee of dance group als..  she als the senior born on 90 als... haiz.. i have talk a lot with her... we know each other well als.. Management Senior!
• David - cute senior (HBP senior)!! committee of dance group als! we din hv many chance to talk.. but i knw he, he knw me!
• Ah yap (Rix Yap) - committee of dance group! Camera man of dance group als.. haha! he always take phto in our dance activity.. HBP senior als!
• Chu En - committee of dance group! Management senior! Starting we din talk so much, cn say din talk at all...but i know her more through chit-chat at the end of the semester!! Aries senior als.. we dun hv gap.. and getting know each other more and more liao!! we getting closer and closer..
• Qiao Wen - committee of dance group! we just talk a few.. not much ko! she is penang ppl als.. but is butterworth de.. 
• Candy (li thing) - ex-president , she is nice... knw her well onli.. ouh.. she get relationship with ah yap de.. kaka... sweet sweet lah... 我早就 feel dao liao.. cham lolz..tis year my feel so chun.. dislike*
• Ka Vun - accounting senior, dance group senior.. nice senior.. he yeng pun... oh.. he sing nice too..
• Bi Wei - advance senior = senior de senior... nice senior! hbp senior..
• Ming Wei - hbp senior , advance senior... he say starting feel tat i speak vy 'chuan' but knw better liao.. feel i m nice...

haiz.. knw a lot of senior.. cnt list all lah.. but senior say dun treat them so "senior" treat them normal.. be fren!

but i view is.. sometime we need to treat senior as senior at the serious moment..

and be fren when we play together.. YEAH!!

• Ling Yi (Yiyi) - best fren in dance group! love her!!
• Lee Ping - Accounting fren! dance frens als..
• Ah bok - sweet with lee ping at this moment.. their in relationship after our performing.. he is penang ppl als.. and stay same area with me als - Jelutong!
• Sheng Jia , Nelson , Hui Yi , Shing Yi ... we dance Jiggy together...

thought 'nei bu guan mo', i get knw many 1st yr dance member.. like..

• Sze han , yu Shung , sok ling , sook ling , U hew , jowie , chai er,,, so on so on..
• ar... i get know paris , leona and snowy through dance group als..

and etc etc etc...

lazy to write the description and other thing oledi... haiz.. full stop here!!

Tawau