30th of June

Since 20th of January I enter OCBC having my internship...

I gain alots!! Train up myself to work on when i am super down moment!!

I am stand up still!! 

Office politics office talk more to see.. Till more to learn!!

Hope i am gaining in the right path and be improve always!!

Blessing!!

The most valuable i gain is a gang of nice colleague!

All treat me as a small small girl!! 

1 more month to go!! I start miss it!!

The GAME: Clash of Clans

I start play tis game from early of 2014...

Starting i was randomly ply.

Coincidently, i meet a badge of colleague ply on it als.

So i join their clan to be group together.

Tis game is one of the game i play quite long. 

Even candy crush i play 6 months and stop ady. I feel i cnt stand on an game such long one.

The longest game tat i play from before till now i think is soduku only kua?! Muahaha

Well today we hving battle day and lose ady.

The 1st time we lose in our war... 

Well strong enemy i would like to said.

我其实很单纯

其实我有很多时候都很单纯…

我的性格可能会有点像男生… 

但是就是喜欢的东西，就喜欢很难解释…

以前都认为有一个爱自己多过我爱他的男朋友会比较幸福…

我慢慢的讨厌这个说法了…

我从以前到现在喜欢过3个人，另一个说法是暗恋…

我的第一和二段感情都是对方主动的…

第一个是多年朋友变成情人再变成朋友，因为他离开马来西亚了… 在一起不到一年… 没有什么 是puppy love

第二段是我现在最伤的一段… 让我压力也很伤心的… 我以为他爱我先所以我会比较幸福… 结果因为他我变成盲目了…变成不是我去了…

看过一句话

当你发现你暗恋的人也喜欢你，是一件幸福的是…

讲回我喜欢的人… 

让我有喜欢的有2个,心跳加速的有1个…

小学朋友一个…曾经喜欢… 很久没有联络了… 无意中我知道他喜欢过我的同学… 喜欢他是很久的是了… 现在没有什么… 没有做过什么表示

第2个是大学学长… 蛮好看… 跳舞 认识的… 但我知道他喜欢我的学姐朋友… 哈哈 但是他现在跟我另一个学姐在一起… 我也没有做什么行动…

第3个 有让我心跳加速的… 跟他有很多共同点… 我到底对他又如何… 我也不懂他对我是如何… 但他在众人前都否认不可能… 我知道他现在没有想要有爱情先… 但是我也很想给他知道我接下来我可能要远距离爱？！ 

我恐惧爱情… 没有很渴望…

但是越到一个让我有如此心跳加速的你应该是第一个… 他是我爱的？！

我从来没有为我爱的去表达…

我不懂也没有信心去争取… 

我是否要为我爱的勇敢一次？

知己 VS 情侣

知己 与 情侣 的分别就是那一个责任…

异性知己往往可能可以给你更好的意见… 相比同性的…

跟他有一种说不完的话题… 是看谁先开口…

各自有各自喜欢的东西… 虽然很多时候会一样… 但不一致时还是会尊重对方的看法…

他跟别的给我的感觉很不一样… 第一印象他是一个宅男，但是其实很不像咯…

很好说话… 认识他久了，我们变成每天斗嘴… 他整天骂我 siao cha bo...

哈哈… 我已经没有什么骂他了，但他还是…

还有一个月左右… 我就要离开了…

不舍得 同事们…

不懂还有没有机会见到呢…

我写不下了… 

传•言

他的说过现在没有想要…

他也回应几次的不可能…

我也知道我们之间现在不是那种关系…

他的不可能，不是，没有东西

提醒了我自己不要想太多…

简简单单的关系… 好友难寻…

但是，

在别人眼里已经是情侣的行为…

但，

我觉得还好…

我有时候搞不懂我到底有没有感觉？！

可能我有一点恐惧了吧？！

但是跟他真的很开心…

有种讲不完的感觉…

感觉很舒服… 个有个的看法… 但很多看法很像…

其实我现在已经不敢在公司跟他有什么接触了…

在公司的传言，传到多姿多彩到…

我无语跟他们…

但我们私下还是保持我们的联络…

还有一个月又一个星期…

我就要离开了…

很不舍得，但是不舍得的是同事罢了…

希望还会跟大家保持联系…

梦里见到他…

梦见他啦… 我既然梦见王子

天啊！

他在别人眼里是王子， 但是我不是白雪公主，只是一个很普通的灰姑娘...

在这次的梦里，梦到跟他牵手叻…

在沿着去某个地方他牵起我的手

后来还十指紧扣着…

梦是梦… 醒来了 还是这样…

哈哈…

No emo recently!!

Recently not much emo...

Just abit stress...

Well... Quite full with laugh!!

Like!!

Haha

Is time to work hard on my study!!

Karyao babe!!

Internship end soon...

I think i will miss those funny colleague and seniors!!!

听•唱•歌

最近都一直接触音乐…

昨晚听妈妈碎碎念后，心情很烦…

我脑海里出现… 如果我不在家你们会怎样…

虽然表面说让我出去闯… 但其实我担心的是你们！

haiz

矛盾！

告诉自己不要想太多！

Moody 的心情 加上 压力 我选择听歌和唱歌去啦…

最近有一点狂听歌

K 我近期大爱的 Birdy 的 skinny love, wings, all about you......

一直唱 一直唱…

唱到12点了还在唱…

突然某人回 watapps... 

有跟他 heha 啦

结果 他 recommend 了几首歌给我…

让我爱上的有一首 就是 Trust you - 伊藤由奈 …

OMG… 喜欢这首歌!

好听！

I'm waiting for your love

I love you!!! 

I trust you!!!

谢谢你的推荐！

雯茹 ah loo ❤️

请我的第一杯咖啡

哈哈…

他实行他的承诺…

请我喝咖啡…

老实讲 真的很不好意思！

但很谢谢你…

heha 了 1个小时多！

So near yet till far

Feeling near sometime!!

But far sometime as well!

I cnt confrim the feeling!

Possible but how was it!

I gonna leave soon...

Will get far and far if nothings...

June 2014 • new month

New month!!!

Single life go on!!

Intern life till going on!!

Enjoy my life!

Happy always!!

Good luck always!!

实习 倒数2个月

距离实习结束还有2个月而已…

开始有点不舍得了…

不舍得很多同事…

要珍惜接下来的2个月…

加油宝贝！

传言是真的吗？

最近听到很多传言…

Emmm

还记得，第一天在公司就拒绝你的邀请… 我都一直记得因为感到很不好意识…

我不确定当下我的感觉… 可能是我不敢想太多… 会害怕失去一个朋友…

但是我很敬佩你，你有想法，拿CFA!! Thumb up!!

自昨晚跟你聊了一下，我发现我们向往相似的目标跟未来…

我以前的包袱已经没有了…

只剩下 父母要担心！

有时候很希望有个伴一起去拼！

从聊天中发现其实你也蛮压力的！

加油吧！

521 脱牙套

哦…

刚才脱牙套了!

好不舍得哦！

感觉少了什么！

但现在笑起来很不想我了… 呵呵

回想 从之前还没绑牙开始

每次去诊所都是自己一个人…

有时看到很多都是有伴侣陪…（大部分绑牙的都是女生）

而我都是一个人…

尽管我不是单身时也是一个去，一个人等…

我独立了 2 年… 

现在都要结束了…

我还是一个去回，我应该鼓舞我的勇气跟独立 还是 伤心一路的孤单？！

哈哈…

都过了! 为自己全新出发吧！

开心每一天，还对得起自己！

520 ❤️ 2014

2014年5月20日

520 这个数字在爱情里带有爱的意识…

最近这几天 心情灰灰的

并不是 emo 只是有一些东西在烦…

昨天是最烦的一个晚上

加上一个人在家，没有人可以说，自己就一直想…

到底我要的路是这样吗？

有一些东西也很不舍得…

整晚反反复复 醒了又睡回…

到了清晨 我感觉 down down… 就想找人谈谈

清晨时候就让我想到一个人

他就起身起得特别早…

结果他没空，在赶功课…

那就算了…

但他的回应跟提醒… 有让我感觉好一些…

还好去office 还有几个he ha 的同事…

自我换位后，大多都只是在email里讲话…

但讲得比以前多了… 因为大家真的没有空面对面讲话 却 可以在email里狂无聊对话… 哈哈

这也是我换位后的新乐趣…

明天 21日， 可能要脱牙套了…

有点紧张… 好不舍得…

但不确定一定脱pun lah...

哈哈

520 爱爱我的家人和朋友…

希望明年的 520 是有情人相伴… 💌

分享 • 当下情况吧？！

 Sometimes, to confess a personal feeling really too difficult, too afraid to even now this relationship have lost. 有时候，要坦白对某个人的感觉真的太难了，因为太害怕连现在这种关系都失去。 

分享 • 经历之一

对于一个男人来说，“我都道歉了你还要怎样”，这种态度是绝对要不得的。你要不然就别道歉，要道歉就得是真心的。别觉得自己好像道个歉有多了不起似的。而且，并不是所有事情道歉就有用的。女人身上并没有一种开关，一按下去就立刻开心。道歉不仅需要语言，还需要行动。—— 冷爱 

世界就是这么小…

世界好小 好小…

他 她 是认识的… 我 她 他 也认识的…

这可能叫缘分吧…

遇到我第一个暗恋的人… 好久了…

也忘记为什么对他有喜欢的感觉…

但，他是让我记忆深刻的同学…

去年见回他后，让我勾起很多回忆…

现在可能是好朋友…

他在我心情最差时，让我开心起来…

也要谢谢他，间接性帮我走出情伤，不然我现在还是以泪洗脸…

Haiz…

不要烦了… 见一步走一步吧！

搞好我的工作先吧…

我梦见他…

他出现在我梦…

出现不久，一下子

第一幕我是需要拥抱时，他给了我一个温暖的拥抱…

很温暖，加上这里要下雨，冷冷的天气

但我惊醒梦境…

却好像很快的又入梦了

过后我是感觉在一个室内比赛场还是飞机场内…

遥远的看到他…

但他的身影已经要转身离去的…

我追上去，

看到一个女生在旁边推行李似的

我没有叫他

只是从跑步的步伐换成走路…

看着他很兴奋的走走跳跳…

他顿时转身看后面，然后站着…

走向我来…

我也向前走去…

他轻轻的推了我一下…

我问他：你要怎样？

他顿时牵起我的手，跟我说：等我回来…

然后他塔了我肩膀，走到一个入口…

他就说：我走了，到了跟你说一声…

你回去小心啊…

我就点一点头，看他走进去了…

好不舍得啊… 结果是梦一场…

My last dean list?!

Oh it may my last dean list!!

Last exam sem in my degree life...

Repost: Eason concert

Well...

My story till fresh in my mind...

It is a story i wish to come true mayb...

And ngam ngam is my frens bday...

Tat become a reason for i win this for my frens...

It is one of my memory... I love it!!

Miss you my dear real frenz

Eason Life Concert

hey peeps...

Great news today after back from injection.
Check out the mail, i receive a mail said i wont Eason Concert ticket!!

OMG, i feel very happy.
but feel dilemma!!

I hv strong feel wanna go watch, but i promise my fren go cameron together ady.
I have to give up either one.

i give up eason concert due to 2 reason.
1. friendship is important than idol, friends will accompany u till the end.
2. the ppl in my story is not around

Wish to go with you, my dear real friends, who accompany me when i m down!
I dunno what will happens to us, but the story i will remember it and only u and me.
i love the friendship we had now, no stress!!

Good luck to you!

Happening March

March is not good to me!!

the world is happenning...
my family as well...

grandma is pass away last Sunday!

over the feb and mar my emotional and feeling is like a boat...
down down... wanna up abit.. get down again!

haiz...
now till busy on many stuff...

beep... pass back..

i will back again!!

Internship: Gambadet

Today get found a mistake done on monday by senior...
Miss out 1 key in!!
Feel wrongly on myself!!
Recently work load is abit high, few taks on hand!!
Especially skip tracing, many process of checking and update entry need to write...
Always tired when do skipper tracing!

Karyao in internship!!
Do my best!!

二月了...

很快，二月了...
努力规划我的未来...
没有很好的方向 yet...

努力赚钱! 努力存钱!

朝目标迈进!!

还有 5个月+3星期

考试成绩顺利!!!

1 down, 2 to go...

No comment on today paper..

But abit emo din receive his SMS...

考试! 哪里可能不紧张??

讲不紧张是假的啦..
但，也考这么多次... 也习惯...
还是会紧张!!
等下就考这个学期的第一张!!
加油!!

Relax relax...
IF see u later...

Emo!! 认命吧...

得不到就是得不到!!
先天不足，后天不够努力得来的后果就是这样!!

加油吧，茹茹!!

足够就好!!

Bless me!!

好忙哦

11月快接近尾声了...
这个月很忙
考试，功课，儿塞们，工作..... 等等
haiz...

我忙到要跟他庆祝生日的时间都不多..
过几天再补回哦

手上还有很多份 儿塞们 还没赶完..

阿茹，加油！


路过一下罢了....

分享

世上不爱的理由有很多：忙、累、为你好。。。。
而爱的表现只有一个：就想和你在一起！- 鲁豫

November, so fast

So fast, now ady november!!
After 2 month I gonna start my internship!!
Oh gosh, I left a short period for tis semester only!! I will miss my coursemate very much!!
Haiz!!
I would say my internship offer consider settle down!! Now just wait the offer letter!!
Now is end of the semester break, next week gonna hv 2 mid term test!!
And rushing assignment like hell!!
Aliluya lo!! Really crazy!!

Nw I super busy with study and working!! Aduii

Get fat tis 2 day ady!! No time keep fit pun!!

Karyao la babe!!

My love always be with me!
Cheer and good nite!

I am stress with no love

Recently getting stress from study,work and my time for love...
I am reserve the time to have love end up with nothing
I need a guy who can make me cheer up without worry and stress.
I feel more down when I see tis..
Start with a excited mood and end with a down mood.. I feel wanna crying today!!
I wanna some care and love.
Even paktor, can I have some?!

I need some?!

I am stress now!
I lost my direction, I need ppl guide me walk on,pls!!!

病况中

Arghh...
感冒 微发烧
发冷中

不只身体生病
头脑都烦病了..

有几个决定要做

钱啊...

我需要工作赚点钱.. 
不然

*正在筹备有朋友一起搞的 online business
*找 intern 公司以及处理实习的文件
*找 part time 工作
*更换我的老公 dslr
*维持爱情的保鲜期
*做功课，读书
*哦!! 大条了! 要减肥 还有 去印...

嘿在... (haiz...)

加油，雯茹

Get my 1st one

Really paiseh to said I get my 1st Dean list on my university life!
But it mayb the only 1 =(
Well,
I hope tis sem I get do my best to boost up my CGPA!!

Blessing me!!

[New In] Power Bank

New in power bank
My 2nd power bank
It is a 30000mAH power bank
Cost me RM 99 and it come with a mp3 as a free gift =)

#throwback Taiwan

渔人码头
踏上渔人码头那一刻，心想下一次踏上时我一定要和爱我的他一起站上去!!

#Throwback my Taiwan Trip

miss the Taiwan.
I hope to go again.
with my love.
recently crazy with my internship and part time job stuff.
sorry to late update Bloggie..

just drop by a post now.
so that/mayb i can replace or add on when i free to wrote such long memory.

#dropby

Ready to FLY

1st time FLY aboard!! (with passport with take flight)
excited but down mood with the money currency very bad, so I cant spend so much over there.
money is hard to earn, so spend wisely.

my plan in my mind now, buy cheaper souvenir, food/mask/memory things.. the point is cheaper!
bcos i really really not much money to spend only!!
and eat wisely too, dun waste with simply buying the food!!

although the excited feel is not that high compare to tis morning!
I need to enjoy to the max over there!!
take more photo and test the view over there!!

Blessing with no any bad weather!! No taufan pls!!

safe trip and enjoy!!

OOTD : Eyelet Baby Doll Top

New outfit receive today...
Actually tis is a replace cloths.. as my order dress is spoil ady, the seller replace another piece I choose.
just a top, i like the eyelet cloths..
emm.. somehow, i would more like it, if that is not a top is a dress.. i will more like it!!
tis piece of top bought from Missypandora.
I quite like the cloths she sell.. but some dress is price high for me..
I m saving money season now.. because I have few target need to hit and I need to save some money!!
karyao ar!!

Next week gonna start working.. feeling nervous... wish I can do it!!

Never try, never know!!

Emmm...
Honestly say, I am shock with the the suddenly offer!!
Well, I digest it more and more now!!
So far today get better than ytd, decided cnt break your promise!!
Just go there learn smth extra!!
No lose one!! I m the gaining side!!
I should grow more, ruru!!
Karyao oh!!

Just do my best!!
I can do it!!

Part time intern?

想起来，短短的2天发生了出乎预料的事...

电话响起，hello... can i speak to Wen Ru... YES.. hi, I m calling from Intel...

What? INTEL..
做梦都没有想到 intel 这么快就 call 我...
omg..
Intel 是我一直想要工作的地方，因为很多人都说它 benefit 很好...

这次 Intel offer 我的是 HR department but HR 不是我的 major...
我不知道我适不适合 HR, 但Finance 好像不适合我.. 因为我缺乏知识和动力...
要不断地判断，不断地预测...
emmm
这是不是一个好机会让我体验 HR 还有 Intel 的生活呢？

这个 part time intern 的 benefit 也很不错... 值得我去试...
但学业也要顾好啊...

如果我接受了，祝愿我一切顺利....

Expense: Hand Phone

Hand phone is non stop changing with the model, design, system and the price.

Should I say hand phone is a luxury things...

When I was studying in high school, those handphone price 600+ is very geng ady! But now, those price 1000 consider moderate only!!

I personally starting dislike android phone ady, the system is non stop upgrade but not all the phone is getting spport with the upgrade!! Like android 3.0smth with the ice-cream 4.0++
Many phone cnt upgrade!!

On the other hand, look at apple iPhone, emmm
I feel the price is bring the quality!
They can update they ios system for their phone product (em,actually they didn't produce much phone product too, haha)
I love iPhone actually, but I can't afford the price on buying!! Still in process!!
While look forward on new model als! Haha

I promise myself, my next phone buying will be iPhone!!

Karyao save money!!
Emm, I have to earn 1st!! Keke

Respond is on alert!! Mail box is blinking

So far, I start getting the reply form the application!!
So far I have get 1 respond for interview, 6 company review, 2 phone call for confirmation and 1 request for complete my academic detail and university letter!!

But some document still not yet out, so I can't do much things!!

Few days ago I start asking senior about their internship and I start getting understand the details!!! I hope I found what I want and success it!!

Beside, I also found that, their is a company is hiring intern for cheap labor!!

Emm, I m rearrange my most wanted sequence d...

Hehe

Good luck to me!!

Step in interview crowd

Day by day, is time for me to ready step in working life!
A good internship is a good start to kick start my experience gain!
Start form gaining interview experience!
I dunno the company want me or not? Good for me or not? Good for future? Can learn?!
Really hard to decide, but I need to learn how to show myself and let other want to hire me!
Arghhh

Time to practice and prepare!!

I am not short!!

Baggie spot check

bag spot check. wat actually have inside?

the bag used yesterday night. Hang out for a simple dinner =)

This is a simple bag or call it envelop bag.

It can be 2 way of using. sling or carry.

It color is brown.

Bought 2 years ago, seldom use because the capacity is too small for me. 

I think i just used 4-5 times, not more than 10 times. =( sorry bag!

ok, lets see wat i put inside when i going out yesterday night.

  yay yay, what i have inside?
- Wallet from Mango
- Small money bag  from S&J (i think... too long ady!!)
   *and with my lucky pill wish key chain
- tissue =)
- card holder from Diaso.. RM5 mah.. save money...
and last..
- my dear phone, xepiria neo v.. =)

with LOVE,

WenRu

TGIF, 3rd August 2013

oh yeah, is Friday. I write a late post due to not feeling well on myself.
This 3 pic is #ootd. NERD t-shit bought from Hatyai, it just cost me 10 batt (around RM10, but currency is high when i go on July, now also seem bad). I like Hatyai, been there few times, because the expenses over there is lower abit, many things is quite cheap, but i din shop much over there because I lazy to argue the price.

Friday, my working day. First day be an agent, quite nice feel, hope i can continue working on it. The pay may not so high but I believe as experience gains I can earn more!!

This noon pop hang out for a movie with bf, damn cold. I din bring any jacket so freeze inside the cinema and feel not well under the cold. zzzZZZZ

Counting down for the taiwan trip. But but but... the currency now is damn high... erghhhhh
Ish, really hope malaysia ringgit get better on the coming hari raya lol....


ops, i miss the pasar malam of today also. I was sleeping at that time.. yiii... let it be lah...


time to let me go cooking my drama..

updated later..

new stuff is coming to my room soon!!

Just forget the sadness.
Be fun and happy always.

Love,

Wen Ru

26/7

So far July is over soon. Planing for many things. Task list, 0 completed, 5 in process and 3 haven't work on (may thinking on give up).

Ok then, my salary of this month was not so high but okok lah.

Thinking to have shopping but failed many time, because no ppl accompany. U may ask why don't ask my bf?! I would say, I feel abit not good to ask him, cos I looking on my interest and that is not he interest. I scare end up I care on his feeling and I bought nothing. Arghh
I don't know how, a fren is asking to  teach/let him comfort to tis all the time, as time go on he will comfortable with tis!! I dunno how.

Actually I am a branded lover too, or should I turn other way to say, every girl/women love branded stuff.
All the stuff have the famous brand like bag,shoe, clothes, accessories and so on...

There are a lot target things in my heart always. Well, I till keeping my money to invest it... hope soon.

26/7 is friday rite?!
And it is a public holiday too.
Emm, I wish to walk around at mall, mayb the new mall.
See how,but I thinking on my favorite more than that.
I was thinking to eat sushi and korean food.

Emm, to save money on my favorite food, sushi should buy from qb jusco and I need to start find korean food recipe to cook myself?!
Haha

Friday task, find recipe lah...

Wake on 2 again

After exam peak I was abnormal, I will wake on midnite and I only slp a few hours.
Emm, tonight I think I was hungry! I am craving on food at late night but end up no eat just slp 1st.
I can't sleep back now, watching running man, that is a food race espisode. OMG I am hungry!!
I miss korean food!

My last korean meal was may, with my dance group committee!! I miss the food and the moment too!! A free meal, we just need to pay extra rm4!! Wu yea.. *Like*

I am thinking to eat bibimbap, kimchi and also bulgogi!!

Arghhh!! I am hungry!!

Dare to dream

A late post due to my lappie is enter to hospital.
I have a lot of dream want to make it, but I feel hard in sometimes.
This is because I need use up many things to make it success. For example money, times, beauty(mayb), energy, understand, mind set, creativity and motivation!!

I was thinking to be a professional photographer, professional dancer, online store boss(with nice income), paying blogger and so on and on...

Many dream!! Need to plan and set priority also!!

Think before plan, plan before do!!

Shooting dream part 2

Be a shooting model, capture the smile and beauty!! Hope it!!

Recently saw a groupon tat offer RM 88 for 2person indoor shooting!!
I was get some mind and interest to buy tat!! But...
2person is hard to share but can choose to have 1 person
But but...
Only indoor wor?! Worth meh?! But include make up and hair-do
But but but....
I was run out money recently?! How??

Earghhh!! *挣扎中*

At tis moment

I was awake at tis moment. I don't why?! I should sleep tight now, since I was tired to run out the thursday! My feeling now was weird, abit confuse, feeling something is missing!! Am I left out something or something is gone?!
I feel I am nothing to the social, is mean no value?? No way, no die at the moment, I cannot make my parents disappointed!!
WTH, should I change my life way?! Life partner?! Life activity?! Life mind?!
Should I start a business myself?! Or geting learning and improve my skill?!

I guess I lost my dream and future mind?!

Weird feeling, not that sad but feel uncomfortable and loneliness!?

WTH!!
I need to do something for myself to cheer up myself!?
Exercise?!
Gifts for myself?!
Play a new game?!
Eat my favorite?!
Surprise for me?!

Anyway, wish I can slp back and wake on time later!!

Overnight

Overnight with another 4,
Day out with no back home,
Dress up my cotton on,
Driving my roti car,
No heels only flat,
The nite I enjoy...
Sleep together...
Lets forget those sad things!!
Looking for my next target!!

They say fire starting in my heart!!

I wonder my position and wonder my importance...

I am human I have feeling!!!

Every action I am look into eye!!

The fire till there?! I wonder!!

When I cn be your model?!

I wish one day I can be a target on the lens, whole memory card only me, every single moment is keep on eye to me!!
Have a good photo, good picture, good posture, good smile, good memory and good to me!!

Yeah!! Finish my Year 3

3 down, 2 to go!!

really tired!!
2am awake until now!!
my eye damn tired...
but drink coffee jor.. hard to slp now!!

my body and brain is tired but hard to slp...
cham!!

1 more down, 2 down 3 to go

gambadet!!
Hwaiting!!!

3 paper to go!!

1 week to go!!

good luck to me!!

1 down 4 to go

Oh gaga
1st paper!! I doesn't slp very well last nite!!

Slp at 11.30pm but 4.45am ady wake up!!

I dunno how much time I use before I asleep leh?!

Anyway!! Really tired after exam!!
Use up whole brain to do exam...

Race Start

Final exam is starting!! 1st paper in this exam is tomorrow!!
Wish me good luck!!
Hwaiting!!

Wat I did today!! LOL

LINE Doll

wu yeah...

i won a LINE doll from official line malaysia company

it is original doll

very nice quality and detail..

love it...

thank the LUCK..

i saw fb say only pick 300 winner to win this only..

the contest is about write why u like LINE...

wat i wrote about?

haha... *keep it secret*

tell your after i exam.. if i till remember..

kaka

Study week

omg.... sleepy man!!
Low energy!!!
Haiz....

振作啊!!!

Blue blue

Cheer up me!!

Oh gosh, bad nite...
But not having good day too!!
Noisy around,

I m tired too..
I need ppl to cheer me up and make me happy!!!

Help me.... assignment haven't finish!! Bahasa melayu super susah lah =(

韩国料理 ● 523

523, 跟舞蹈组同期组委一起共餐，可惜没能来齐人...
但是也很不错了，有10位!!
是一个开心的晚餐,
可能是最后一次聚在一起了!!
很满足这个晚餐!!

I love tonight!!

给爸妈的明信片

一分爱的心意，
结果变成爸妈的紧张以及害怕?!

我很矛盾!

还是爸妈认为我不会做这样的事?!

i do't understand...

it tat i m not lucky enough? or how?
my result always not tat good than other!!
i found out another new result...
i really put afford to study on that, but end up with not a good result....
why...!!
tell me why?!

why other ppl can get this good result but i cant??

feeling cry!!
but no tears...
Ahhhhhhhhh

忙忙碌碌

Haiz... 从文娱结束后到现在都没有好好休息过... 这个星期都一直在忙assignment....  晕

没有什么时间写了...
先睡一下,等下起来继续做 @.@

我的回忆，记录，专辑 ~~

我要做 super model...
有人为我照相，就好像模特儿这样...
记录我的样子，我的成长， 我的回忆....

我希望有一个人不断地为我照相，美美的照片....

我喜欢摄影，但是我也喜欢被摄影...!!!
P/S: 真的不想给钱拍照，拍起来也差不多罢了....

有一种感觉...

五月开始，我突然感觉到一种非常辛苦的感觉...
辛苦或困难到我好像呼吸不到...
很饿但是没有食欲...
都是为了练舞才吃...
今天好像严重了... 开始呕吐...
差不多把午餐都呕出来...
幸亏是在练完舞后才呕...
很累...
累，但是失眠... 很痛苦...

又有一种不被关心，被摆在一边的感觉...
就连我想要吃些什么都得不到...

在赶 Individual assignment...
想到我的头脑都痛了...
对着电脑久了，眼睛会看到黑的画面...
我猜想应该是看太久了...

最近，症状真的严重起来了...

谁可以打救我?!

P/S: 希望我的内伤快点好... 虽然比起星期一有好很多，但是还是会隐隐约约的痛... aleruya =.=

心情低落

啊....
这几天心情糟透了...
没有关心，没有担心，没有心情了.....

有时候需要行动来证明...

请不要敷衍我....

我不是那么 cincai 的...

我是人不是神... 我会痛的 =(

染发记

1/5/2013 劳动节
自己动手一个染头发...
第一次一个做... 之前不是去理发店就是有人帮忙...
哈哈...
染了红色，但是好像又好像暗暗的...
希望是在大灯光和太阳下现色...

Gala Performance

Woo hoo...
在星期五晚上11时左右, 我与另外4位"舞友"(舞蹈认识的朋友) 完成了kpop dance 的表演...
有一种完成一些重要的事的感觉..
我自认没有跳到最好，我还需要多加练习来熟练那些舞步...
Woo
但是我还是使劲全力把舞跳玩...
哈哈
想到有一个 part free style 时，我就感到很好笑，因为跳100次，100次都不一样的... 哈哈
希望是有感觉啦... hehe
掌声和欢呼声也有不错...
在场外遇到豆腐，他说我们赢完了...
算是最有看头...
Anyway...
这是一个不错的经验....
谢谢给我机会的人....
谢谢教导我的人...

很压力

最近真的很压力!!
为什么我不可以有一个懂我，关心我的人?!
我很需要关心!!!
我很久没有大哭了，今晚我崩溃了!!
我的眼泪不受控制的流下来!!

可不可以不要用这样的语气跟我说话!!
让我有不好受的感觉!!
我低落时候可以关心我吗?!
我不要求很多的华丽约会，我想得到的是关心我!!

我感觉我很孤独!!
什么事都自己一个人在撑!!
很无助的感觉!!!

我很压力!! 可不可以给我一个被爱被呵护的空间!!!

打仗中

bloggie... 报道一下... 我还在，没有人间蒸发....!!

外面在政治战争，我就在打我的考试战还有时间战...

最近都在忙考试还有文娱....
还有.... 还有.... 功课,在期中 pop up....
越 pop 越多...

好累o....

懒惰写了....

下个星期，文娱水准，考试，assignment，Gala Night 表演...

加油吧!!

有一点"呼吸"困难

最近很多很多东西要处理!!
要练习,要赶功课,做灯光图 还有考试等的东西!! 很赶!!

我很需要支持及关心让我走下去!!!

很烦
也很无助的感觉!!

可不可以让我幸福一阵子?! 一下也好!!
我很需要支持和鼓励让我走下去!!!

生日快乐

Emmmm...
No much time to write my post!!
Just hv a drop by!!
Add on later or how!!

Anyway, happy happy birthday to myself!! Muackss

告诉自己要坚强

要坚强！！
在我最想有个肩膀靠的时候，它往往在一个距离那....

我只想拥有一个属于我自己的一天.... 就那 24 小时，做我喜欢的事....

今年的生日不会有什么庆祝.... 只是会吃个饭跟一个每年跟家人一起吃的蛋糕....
沟通很重要.... 语气也很重要...
一样的意识用不一样的语气会影响整个意识...
例如，加一个“对不起” 会让别人舒服一点...

我可能不可以这么计较...
但是在我的重视的天，我有悲哀了一下....

我不知道我到底有多重要....

可是我在乎....


omg, 我今天崩溃了...
哭了30分钟.... 有比较好一点....
不然一直压抑着我不知道我什么时候会疯....

最近精神也不是很好....

要好好的休息!! 加油!!!


ops!! 台湾 我与你有约....

学习※加油

付出，这个字对我来说就是牺牲!!
如果真心要做，再累再辛苦也会去做!!
加油!!

我努力学习，希望做好自己，做好一个好leader,好舞者(努力修补自己的不足),好孩子(多回家，为家做事)，好学生(努力读书，完成功课),好女友(好好照顾自己不另他担心)，好朋友(互相帮助).... 等等

他人的做法我管不了,我应该和能做的就是把伤害及悲哀减到最低!!

加油!!

最近练舞练到脚都软掉了!!
但是还是要继续，同时间练两只舞真的会有一点疯...

加油吧!!

考试也接近了!! 正在努力读书，下星期开始要躲在图书馆多一点了!! 不然... @.@

好啦, 加油吧!! 我可以的!!

忙碌的星期四

好累....
从早上忙到现在....
功课，复诊，买东又买西...
把车子驾来驾去....
我都要晕了..

今天牙齿还铁线和rubber 痛死了!!
紧紧的... 好痛!!!
也只有绑牙者懂我的痛!!
那种酸痛!! 会让你睡不着!!

我最近好像越来越欣赏 raper 料!!
我最近爱上 Leessang 的 Gary 和 Tosh Zhang!!
大爱他们两个!!

今天满满的过了一天!!

我超级希望时间可以走慢慢的!!
有一点恐惧时间，恐惧日期!!
不想那些时间/日期这么快到!!
时间恐惧症啊!!!

我的第一个苹果快得到了!!
谢谢爱我的家人!!

我爱你们!!!

家,永远是我最温暖的地方
家人，永远爱我的人，让我感动，关心我... 他们不会嫌弃我，他们会保护我，永远支持我!!

但是我不能时常陪家人，我会努力分配时间的!!

还有一个我爱的人，伤害过，疼爱过... 我遇到他是我的缘分，我珍惜这种缘分!!
有空让我靠一靠，我只想在你肩上休息一会儿!!!

心情。好运

最近发现开心一点，会比较好运的感觉...
但是开心的心情上到一个点后就会掉下来...

我已经不断尽量开心了...
但是，我好像自己在自爽罢了？！
为什么你不能开心一点...
哄一下会怎样wor...

我不像不开心啦....
气死了!!

糟糕!!

cham ar...
cannot concentrate to prepare my presentation and homework! i need help!!!
my mind like getting harassment!!

HELP

16th of March

My month, March
Nearly half is over, but I nt success to hv everyday is happy day yet!!!
Really useless and stupid...
16th, consider the most down day now... dun talk about tat...
My day almost spoil by the ending!!!
The happy things all is gone!!
Although tat is tired day for me but it is worth to get the pay...
RM 120 per day leh... summore only saturday and sunday!! No choice I am poor now!!
I hv 0 balance for last semester, I cnt imagine tat!!!
Plus the installment pay of the car,dental fee and so on... tat why I poor!!
Stress wif many task, I believe I can do it wif mental support, caring and sweet! Bt the conflict make me cnt concentrate and feel to kill myself sometime!!! Really triple or 10x stress wif tat!!!
Am I too stupid?
Misunderstanding or not understand at all?!
I really fall down after the call!! Nothing support me!! Whole body non-stop vibrate with scare plus the worries, until I find my buddy call for help!!
I never thought I care ppl until this kind of important....
I am vibrate-ing
A fever,tired and down mood body, I time to bed, good night!!

喘不过气

最近被功课压得喘不过气，加上现在在忙着跳舞。
这个星期我也懵了很多事情...
那 shampoo 当成 body shampoo 洗身体...
忘记上课...
忘记锁车...
忘记带水壶 等等....

我突然好像肩膀很重，没有自信....
有是好像很无助...
都不知道可以跟谁讲....

我只是想作好它，真的那么难吗？

压力一直增加...
不想听到什么 早知如此，何必当初....

有人跟我说过，如果向后 u-turn 也就是回到起跑点上，永远到不了终点...

杨雯茹加油!!

自己一定要加油!!
自己不鼓励自己,还有谁会来鼓励你....!!

自我鼓励，自我安慰。

Burn

有些傷痕像場大火 把心燒焦難以復活
不碰了好像忘了 恐懼卻在腦海住著
重複卡在一個 重要的時刻 不自覺就會退縮
連幸福也克制著 覺得什麼都會變的
防備著平靜到最後 連愛也透著冷漠

舞 (壹)

很久没有的跳舞感觉 好像回来了...
但是我发现自己弱了...
加油啊!!!

自信好像也少了....

三月●我爱的月

很快的，进入三月了...
距离我的爱日越来越靠近...

我很希望这个三月可以慢慢的过，
让我享受三月的每一分每一秒!!!

希望每一秒都是美好的!!!

我爱爱我的人!!

只是直走，没有U turn可以发生...

直走吧!!
不要去想 U turn 吧!!
最多不就是跌一跌罢了...
尽力让自己走下去...

天份是有限，要靠后天去加油...
尽力而为，开开心心的去面对...
一切会好的...

尽力去做... 雯茹你可以的...

它可能是你的娱乐，可能是你的兴趣，但是它不是你的全部!!!

加油!!!

I am LOST

As stress go up suddenly I get lost for half of the day...
now I only start clam down!!

Is March!!
Is My Month!!

wish the luck come toward to me!!
all things get good and best!!

i told myself,
Be happy and be strong!!
I can do it!!

just Do it!!

Happy come with luck!!

stay REAL!!!