喜欢一个人

哈哈
一直以来 心里都有喜欢的一个人
很久很久 以前认识
很少联络
但会在意对方
也不是很懂对方…
但希望对方开心…

7年前的相遇… 何时再有缘呢?

在7年里还是有遇见其他人
有开始,有结束…
转啊转… 还是记得你…

哈哈


喜欢7年了?

哈哈!
我不懂… 
我不知道你在想什么…
但我知道我的心要什么…

is April but not a fool

so fast!!! step in to 4th month if the year!!
how are u my fren?! 
waiting on you always...
7 years ady!! i hope till the same!!


wish dream come true!!

all of me

my day soon!!
make wishs and dream come true!!!

Non longer a newbie

well is over the probation soon d...
damn busy since 2015!!
every month hv need challenge to face!!
well after take over Sri Lanka... 
it does not feel great, does not feel bad as i predict too...
i thought it will just like tis level.. mana tau, so many issue!
tis week is damn record!!
every day have new issue and is diff case  every day!! make me feel damn tired tis week!! hey man, is not even month end yet!! 
how i going survive leh?!
well is good tat, going to push lanka to system soon!! but is new challenge to face again!!
wat will happens on the testing system on lanka?? 
wat issue will happens when go systems??
no one know!!!

besides tat... how about msia new added product?! 
msia systems?! hahahhaha more to see...

handle sri lanka is not easy job!!!

damn tired... shoulder is quite heavy!! 
task of everyday and those responsible duty!! omg!!!

i miss holiday!! i seem no public holiday!!
long time no holiday!!!
sigh!!!


it should be my happy month!! but it come with tired and stress month!!


btw!! the last friday... mean yesterday!!
damn on the server down!! make trouble on the work!!! make me damn crazy!!


pray hard on next week and let me enjoy gao gao on tis 2 days!!!

Love me like you do

hi bloggieeee
after the happening i not visit here often...
well... not only that.. i was busy on my work as well!!
having many target to achive...
besides, my choosing phobia seem come across a change... but serious as welll... 
photographer...
insurance...
banking...
writing review...
all come across my activity...
but when come across my own choice i become phobia... especially color.. food seem abit get affect... sigh...
i need to train up to decide myself!!!
damn it... 
as someone said...
promise just a promise, it wont stay forever...
even black and white also can be denied

recently start writing review on cafe!!
good try... and i take it serious on the detail more than before!! it was my side income als!! 
hope i can manage to get a food blog or review blog in soon!! 

coffee is part of important last time..
now is not tat so... but i still very sensitive on the caffeine!! i no need to check out the quality of the bene.. my body will reflex automatically!!
if tat is 3 in 1 summore easy!! 

haha!!!

many things have to try!!

i was awaiting the amazing one!! hope u are!!

mr grey, you can romance more than i imagine!!
please gv better scence on fifty shade darker!!!!

IMY  




is March

omg.. is March!!
i miss out the February post...
tis February is full of work and activity all the time!!

i hv taking new challenge on work on 2nd week of feb!!
is good to me somehow!!
wish i hv a awesome march!!

begining of feb is celebration on ex colleague wedding! tat time i am excited to prepare myself to face those ex colleague who long time did'nt meet. beside that, i was nervous on facing him! well!! from nervous and shaking untill control down myself!!
well i think i hv overcome!!
thanks for those compliment on tat nite!!
i hv enjoy meet them!!

oh.. while i busy on Sri Lanka moment i was not much time to get myself hv some shopping... tis cny is over on so so... cos resume on work after 4 day of cny...


haha!!! February is over!! 
hope everythings go smooth and well!!


look forward on my Mr Right 
becos it over 1 years day!! i cannot sad on the pass d!! is over and over!! cheer!!
1 year time is over!! Yeoh Wen Ru karyao!! 




这 一 月 份

这个月太吃惊 又 刺激
发生很多很多事
很 恶魔
很多时候真的很无力
伪装自己 的 感受

过了就过了

不顺的 2014 快过完了!
不要再想这些东西
我越来越不信了!
靠自己比较有安全

一切会好的!
那个心结没有放下 也不能继续
但我真的放不下

太伤了
虽然这次的不一样,但还是会小感伤…

每当我看到那伤口我的心就会刺刺地痛
这感觉又回来了…
怎么办?

我的工作 无精打采
我的书本 没有心情读
我的健康 还没复原

我有时很想逃避!
但不可以


比起上次,没有落泪…
只是提起了我的痛…
感觉好不容易 好转一些 又来!

想离开这里 到国外去呢!

more and more stress is there

tmr need to back office in early!!
more things need to plan!!

i found no place let me distress!!

well

i found i grow up on something!!
i can tahan on ppl i actually no wrong!! just eat the die fish and angry a while and stop it!!

nothings is impossible!!

be myself!! i manage my soul!!!

my dear friday!!

i like the friday with no just work and back home!!

well some surprise that saw some of my fren join the department!!!
oh....
well the point i went nearby is go date with my dear frens and seniors!!

well somethings abit different feel is there!!

i hope get well soon!!!

karyao Wen Ru 😁

忍

能忍成金
忍一忍 不会死

更何况 是别人幼稚的想法

啊茹 保护自己啊…

加油!

为自己的梦 加油!

Stress out...

recently getting stress n stress-er
hope i can crop with it!!
well... i hope i can going smooth in the comming months..
many plan, many action!!
always time limit me to do some extra things i want!!!
money as well!! 
i wish i can plan well and do awesome on my 2015!!
move out my safety zone!
the happiness seem getting disapper.. pls don't!!!
i need a comfort friends!! 
argh!!!
please reduce my emo-ness

波折的一个星期

刚刚过的一个星期 很怪
这一个星期 没胃口吃
午餐休息时间都没吃, 吃水果算了
晚餐 吃菜不吃饭 但 上星期没吃什么家里饭,因为爸爸妈妈不在家
一个人有好有坏… 让我想起去年的失恋场景… 也是自己熬过去

这一个星期 睡不好 应该是包括现在
每晚多看书 还是看youtube 还是听歌 到睡去

这一个星期 心情很难开心
变不讲话了…
心里空空…
手机静了…
我挣扎了几次…
我面对… 但很辛苦…
我试着忘记…很难… 
很多东西一看到就想起…
我想哭…但哭不出…很压抑

为何这一个心情 压力变成一个很重的石头
很多东西 压下来… 迎面而来
工作量日月增加… 很恶魔

这次工作无法麻醉我…

我心空空, 没有动力…

但要面对现实…
我的感觉错了…
第六感 错了…

我跟你撒了一个慌… 我的第六感…

我不敢打扰你了!
我亲爱的好朋友,我不想失去你!
(我打这句时,我哭了)
陪我熬过转折点的
让我忘记前度的伤心的
帮我做决定当我选择恐惧症的
让我开心起来的
“好朋友”
不再像以前了…

泪停了… 
我是否发了一个星期的梦?

not hurt not sad mah?

say no is fake one lah!!!
but tis not hurt like one year ago.
u really scare die my last night.
i get scare on u keep on chase on the answer of the question.
i not dare to say not because of i scare the reject i scare the broken frienship.

how u bring me up, u really cannot imagine.
u may not good but i not good for u too!!
i did tell myself, when the time i feel i good enough n fair to u, i only will say out.
but end up u voice out 1st.. hate u...

may good to know now instead of future days!! but i will not confess on u anythings... u just show your thoughts only.
mayb one days will happens somethings, u dunno... no one know!! 

haha

心头上割了一刀 却流不出血

我不懂为什么?
可是我早已知道我没资格…

心里不能一时之间空空的…

我还是需要满满的感觉,
给我方向…
但我再也不用隐瞒你任何秘密…
一个没有秘密的好友
我算赚到了…

明天会跟好…
我只可以emo 一天…
我只可以痴痴的等待…

爱自己先才爱别人…
我有事还是可以有两剑插刀的朋友…
不会伤害我的好友…

爱情可能不能长久,但友情可以!
我爱你 好朋友

照顾好自己啊

说着说着…

才发现原来你这两天睡不好…
我也是…都很迟才能入眠…
摆脱啦…
我今天觉得累了… 为什么还是不能睡…
救命啊…

照顾好自己的胃啊!!

行动啦…

是时候发功啦…
读书
旅游
增值
目标
改变

ah loo, hwaiting 

#throwback Year 2014

2014 is my happening year
many things was happens to me in the year 2014
i not very much like 2014
but there is till hv some happiness things happens

the year make me down and up!!
the bad valentines i hv!!
the bad memory the hurt heart to me!!
the people leave we away- my grandma..
the working life style started.
the happiness in my internship company.
the stress in my turnning point.
the happiness to know you.
the appreciation on every good person treat me such goodness.

in my 2015 i just wish my 2 wish will dream come true!! 

i know wat is my feel very well now!!
when i m down,
when i m emo,
when i m happy,
when i need hug,
when i choosing phobia,
when etc...
i was thingking of u!!
IMY


pray hard and safe for you and me!!

我亲爱的 1月1日

2015 的第一秒钟跟了某人度过…
emmm 很久没有去倒数了…
很久很久没有去人挤人了…
不知下一年会这样过? LOL 还第一天罢了

很开心跟你的倒数… 使我的跨年变得不一样一些…

新年有2个大愿望…
希望可以实现!快快实现…

晚安

Xmas 2014 + Last Saturday and Sunday of 2014

the xmas 2014 is over the last Saturday and Sunday of 2014 is end also...

let me throwback one by one...
well.. the xmas eve 24th i end work will so so mood.. cos i know tat i going to back office work on 25th... sienzzz
well... tat is a call from mystery!! ask me out for yamcha... btw the time is 11:45 like tat... reach SQ pun 12 plus plus...
well it is xmas eve... so i should not let it so blank... plus.. next day my working hours not so early... so acceptable too..


oh yea... 
saturday morning receive my post!! yeah!! good boxing day after!!
someone xmas present is reach too!!
out lunch with the gang... n pass the belated xmas gift!!
i think u like it ba!! u tot on the price is 30 plus... haha... and u use it on the spot!!
thanks yea!! you feel gam dong mou?!
haha!! thanks you if u like it!!

with the next round... 2 become 3... happy on someone follow up on us!!! haha



last sunday... again...
go gurney again... for the watch issue...

haha... meet up again handsome!!


3 more day!! 
looking forward on 2015

sorry for the belated xmas gift

haha!!
hope u like it!!
merry xmas!!


the Library

LOL....
go library so many time als din get the member card...
why? cos always someone hv the card instead of me!!

well thanks my dear "boss" paying ytd bill with credit card and i get the member card!! well!! u can hv it when u needed

yeah yeah!! thanks boss

my 2014 X'mas

with the suddenly call out!!
there is no lonely xmas eve!!!
happy nite we have!!
is a good sign to end the bad things on year 2014.
the most lucky i hv in 2014 is get know with you!!
stay tuned!! 
counting down on the year 2015 coming!!
stay lovely and miss you babe!!


可不可 不只是好朋友

有聊不完的东西… 只要看心情
尽管没有东西聊 也不会很尴尬
只要在你旁边我就很舒服 很开心
尽管我们吵吵闹闹…互相斗嘴… 
我们也是真心对待…
Today i wear superdry T
but i am not dry today... because of u!

LOVE
Gwendolyn M

Can you? Can we?!

Can you be my Kang Gary?!
Can i be your Song Jihyo??

亲爱的 12 月 7号

晴朗的星期天
早起的我 为了 工作而起身
本想穿裙子… 但怕上司骂就算了
做着做着 overtime 料啦
4点才离开公司 去哪里都塞车到…

本想不去书展了… 被某人说服 说最后一天了 就 结伴去吧…
逛了一阵 没有收获 
应该是没有什么选择了吧...

但某人的stim stim 加 病病 样 怎么有收获呢?

我要找的 novel 都没有 应该是没有 offer lo... 畅销书是这样的啦

过后去喝茶闲聊 就回啦… 晚上我也有事做… 所以没久留…留在塞车路上是最久… sien

温暖的星期天 之 好久不见
加 我们都累
晚安

12 月的那一天

不再留念过去一段感情… 
想念实习的日子…

最近都在忙工作…
你还是我的温暖源头…

你的这一天过了…
还有很长的路要走…
我们一起迈向目标好吗?

很久没有见到你了… 很久没有久聊了…

日久生情

日久生情,才是真的缘份。喜欢你的人,要你的现在。爱你的人,要你的未来。真正的爱情,不是一见钟情,而是日久生情;真正的缘份,不是上天的安排,而是你的主动;真正的关心,不是你认为好的就要求她改变,而是她的改变你是第一个发现的;真正的矛盾,不是她不理解你,而是你不会宽容她。

我们已日久生情?

可恶的意外

可恶可恶
可恶的星期五…
早上出门时就发生意外…
无端端被一个老 uncle pang....
而且被骂到臭头… 太可恶
一大早 弄我哭得…
感觉很气… 但我不跟他吵… 我人好…
如果他没有骂我,我都不会如此的生气…
难到 女生 就可以欺负吗?
非常感觉 我 被欺负…
最近都好像 被 uncle 级的人 欺负…
昨天早上到公司后第一时间 就找某人 诉苦… sob sob...
可恶的… 放工时摩托爆胎…
我的天啊… 黑色星期五…

Well.... 
今天身体都开始痛痛了…
可恶

哦! 昨晚睡着睡着… 很想念你…所以突然我哭了… 好像得到你的拥抱…
Sob sob... I want your hug hug...
IMY

1st wish of the day!!!!

You are my favorite all the time ❤️

这感觉对了?

渐渐的… 我很多事还是先想到他…
喜欢他这几天的回复… 虽然不多
愿一切顺利,安好,健康,成功…

谢谢你

在找我?

我想了很久…不懂应不应该写在这…
但是,我最终决定写一写…
没什么大不了嘛…

有一种抽象的东西叫做 缘份
与你蛮有缘…也蛮投缘… 
谈话也很轻松…
从第一天搭入这层就… 
第一天,坐了你的位置,用你的电脑大概一个星期…
你人未出现前 得知你的名字也是 M字头的那个… 我心里是 OS了 OMG…
在这也来一个 M某某…
还有,你既然是我大学学系的学长…
当你回来的那天… 互看但不认识…
从你回来的那天起… 结果你做了我的 trainer… 向你学习…
但 似乎 吹水 比较多… 哈哈
吹着吹着… 你以前是住我家那带…还有去那图书馆…天啊… 你还认识我哥哥…
OMG…

那天的annual dinner,结果到那就遇到… “纳闷” 不好意思,没有与你和到照

一天一天的…
我的工作开始增加… 很久没有吹水了…

但,在那第一次我比你迟回… 你过来问了盈,我在哪里… 哈哈
在前几天…我开始坐在training room你问S小姐我在哪里… 哈哈
星期二,我较迟回… 你过来找了我和说再见走先…
今天,吃午饭时你过了来看看… 跟我聊一两句,你去吃lunch 了…
哈哈

找我吗? 还是找别人?哈哈

无聊的post… 写下我记得的无聊?
这不是无聊…是我的故事的一段情节…
哈哈

#throwback Last Saturday


Last Saturday, Yesterday 18th October

The 1st Annual Dinner I join tis company... 
A cold or call frezze dinner...
No win lucky draw... Muhahaha
Just hv some general gift.. 
Feel tired on it... Muhahaha

Well, didn't spend much on tis Annual Dinner
Did self make up and hair do for myself, so that i save alots of cost... 
Since no important ppls for me to meet... Just be normal mah!!
If there hv my important person.. I sure costly on it lo... Haha...
Hope i looking well for other on yesterday nite =)






#throwback My Dear Friday

Last friday 17th October 

Friday date after work with my dear coffee-mate

Hv dinner together after work, before movie start.

We 2 hv movie together
The movie call - Annabella 

Although heard the feedback said not very horrible and not so nice.. But we still watch it...
Before movie on screen we ady said want to watch... After few week rescheduled, we manage to watch together... Not with group.. Only us.. LOL

After movie, get to coffee together again!! Miss the coffee time with you and miss you, my best coffee-mates!!


Sometimes I feel guilty to hv your treat!! Paiseh neh...
Thanks tat, tis time i manage to treat back you, as u reject my repayment... 
Really ish u... 
I wondering as u are the "jimat-cermat" ppl and quite money sensitive... How cum u say to treat me and reject me to pay back....
So nice...
Beside... Super thanks the precious gift u bring from KL to me!!! 


Well... The friday get caught by someone and post at FB... Feeling funny... Muhahaha


感觉怪怪的

最近有两件事感觉怪怪…

第一… 在这岗位 我没有应以为傲… 反之不想高调让别人知道…
我是变低调了?还是感觉没什么成功?
哈哈… 但是我至少感觉良好…
开心也蛮重要…

第二… 当遇到一个以前想要的安稳和简单… 感觉好像是很有缘份… 但心中有被占据… 这渴望是以前想要的…
现在的我 要的是怎样?我也不懂…
但是有一个 陪伴我度过我的转折点… 在我的选择恐惧时帮我做决定… 在我不开心时出现就可以加快痊愈… 
也是让我成长了… 似友似情… 我希望是后者


顺其自然…
是你的就是你的… 

Salangheayo



wish to be with you on your coming trip to KL.
however, I hv things to do as well!
but but but... i not dare to say out tis request as well!!
recently meet u more and more... last last weekend (saturday) and last friday...
wish to keep keep in touch stronger and stronger...

my brave really not big!!
can you say out to me instead I say?
arghhh!!!

how was the movie ar? we can watch together!!

>.<

前途 VS 钱途

最近总是把现在的工作跟以前那个做比较…
我认清我不喜欢会计…对银行比较感觉良好…
其实现在的工作跟之前的收账工作是不一样的…
但是现在这一份还蛮好时 但似乎要每天加班…
过来人告诉我,现在这个比较能学到东西 compare to 收账 是每天打电话 而且 要hit attempt and etc...
但是收账那比较有钱途一点,加班有加钱,加班没有这么多…

但是,我自认本身不是很会说话…
我不排斥我会回去那工作… 

现在乘年轻学习先 捱苦先…

如果你在我身边 我就感觉良好得多!

我要你的正能量!加油

This call life...

Feel abit emo...
My life been attach to work and work and work... 
While OT starting on my 2nd days...
I feel faster past tis 1 month!! 
Damn...
Feel down today!!
But the joke 2 of them play on me... Lol...
Make me feel happy and scare!!
Haiz...
Just play on me only!!

But i really miss you a lots!!!
I was nervous when enter the cafe but I pretend nothing!!!
Wanna look at you but i scare...
When i look at you, you look at me too... I feel shy and dare not to continue!!!

U wear very casual today but this is you!! I till feel enjoy.. Cos i can get another look about you!!

Today abit down with emo!! Damn wish to hv a hug!! A warm hug!!

You look sick and weak!! Please take care yourself!! Support support!!

I m excited to meet you again and again!!

I heart you!

I hope my life not only working!! I wanna fight be with you!!

Love the way you are ❤️

I heart MK

I love Michael Kors... Not because of him.
Before he appears in my life,
I ady love tis brand Michael Kors.

*Photo will put it later on =)


I heart MK... It is MK can mean to u als?!
Mayb... At this moment I wish to told you, I miss You!!

The man reduce my stress

The morning wake by beezz beezz

Haha "beezzz beeezzz"
Tis words is intro by you!
It mean the watapps pop in with vibration..
Haha..
Today i get wake on 8smth ady... But lazy  on bed...
Untill you msg me... I get fully wake... And brush teeth ,wash face and change cloths go gym... Besides keep on watapps with you...
Tis is not the 1st time get wake by you!!
But i like tis feel!! 
Wake with laugh and smile!!!

Wish you enjoy tonite yea =)

Will meet you soon!!

心里的话

这段时间都在为工作烦恼…
我懂问题的根在哪里?
但是我似乎比上次开心…
我也害怕我会再次经不起…
应该不会了吧?!
杨雯茹,你要熬下去!


最近 醒来时都会 想起你…
微一微笑… 你赐我能量…

愿一切 一切 都有好的开始,好的延续…

我好像越来越喜欢跟你谈天的时候了…
我们一起加油!

我怀念的…

怀念我在实习的日子…

我更想念的是你…

很奇怪

我不懂… 不懂 为什么…
这次开工有失眠 但是 不是很开心 喔…
我不懂…
但是刚才接触了system 其实没有很困难…
但是 我就是没有很开心…
我此时此刻 很 很 很 很 很 想念 他…
给我力量的他…
我不懂…
更不耐烦的是… 我既然做 normal shift…
你xxx 到底是怎样的?
又讲我做 七早八早的? 又讲我做 AP 或 AR 的?
你玩野?
这种感觉不好受咯…

我只能讲我感觉压力 还有 不开心…

arghhhhhhh

开工 倒数篇

还有几天… 我就要开工了…
我不懂我为什么恐惧… 但是这一定要面对啊…
我为何如此担心?
可不可以 安定一点呢?
intern 时好像没有这样leh?!

不用想这样多啦…
做就是了!
可能有很多新人leh?!

为你的未来… 奋斗吧…
想念你…

Movie Wednesday Nite =)

3rd time watch movie together...
1st time watch movie with you...
A nite full with laugh!!
Smile and laugh is good to us!!

Tonite we watch Detective Conan: Dimensional Sniper at Gurney GSC...

Lol just now you make me wait u alone at  cinema there... Call u din pick up... Yiii

Nvm... Not long time...

But nice movie nite!! 😘

What i am now?!

Sometimes,i get lose... Get confusing..
Actually wat i am now?!
Fresh graduate ppls.... Ish... Damn old?!
Omg... I really feel lost sumtime...
I know wat i like but cnt get it?!
I brave to go kl alone?! Ans is no... I m scare actually!!
I x scare go sg cos i hv believe fren there!! Feel not alone compare to kl!!
Stay penang 1st?! Is current plan... 
Think back my dream... Actually work is to chase my dream... I may just need money...
Well... I know wat job i prefer one... But i gonna go inversely... 
Tis job make me think on the bad people... Is wrong... Tis my career!! It control by me!!
1st i may scare to accept cos emotional cause!! 2nd now i start working phobia... Not much passion on work... Damn...
Once think the time of work... Omg... 7am... Quite early... But actually bring advantage lah!!!
Think it positively!!!
Hope the company become better n better... So i hv good feel on work!!
Try on it!!! Compare to collection it may better d!!! Karyao babe!!!


Ops... How about him?!
Yiii... My happiness will poping up with his conversation... Even just a small things...
I not ready yet!!! Pls gv me a time!! I will go for it when i sure and ready!!!

Be good on myself n my family!!
Take good care on my own health!!!
Dun let ppl worry!!!

I love you!!!

选择恐惧/困难症?

我近期越来越困难做决定了…
烦死人…
不想了…

As you said....

你说过,通常第一份工不是自己喜欢的…
我现在大多是为钱而工作…
但是这也是社会很普通的理由…
我不排除我会回collection的可能性
但是,暂时不是现在…
要给别的机会…
加油!加油!

投资,储蓄,未来,自我增值!

回报都是自己的!

还记得我推掉那个offer的原因,
其中一个是因为你… 可能说我傻…
但是,你告诉我不好留下时… 我也知道你为我好!
为了你,我要继续奋斗下去!

Untitled...

我真的想不到什么题目…
跟她 chat 可能是错误…
这也是事实?
很像被泼冷水的感觉…
我知道我已经慢了…
但是我就是希望我可以得到,结果 什么都没有…
我已经推了2 个offer....
我还有本事推嘛?

我很傻… 
但是我知道我想要的是什么!
希望在明天…
加油!


今天心情很低落…
我想念, 但是我需要靠自己!

穷—这是什么意思?

刚刚看了香港的真实故事剧… 《我们的天空》
看到香港的艰辛的一面…

再第四集 让我更加感触…
穷,让人生活变得更辛苦…
穷,也让人的勇气都磨灭掉…

钱不是万能,但是没有钱真的是很不能…

“外篇”
那不不是应该接受手上得到的 offer?!
Emmm
但,我知道我如果接受了,我会工作得很不愉快,比起来,我倒不如回去 collection?!
这么不开心… 我还要go ahead?!
Sigh....
烦恼一直都在…

我要放松心情…

很多的不确定…
周围的言语…
搞到我很压力…
我的压力最近飙高到很厉害…
我以前会外出松懈…
但是我现在没有心情外出…
想到花费… 钱… #}*%€*#*<}%*^
天啊!
领悟了就别去多想…
知道自己不喜欢就拒绝吧…
不然最后辛苦的还是自己…
雯茹加油! 

今天早上感觉自己很堕落…
但经过闲聊后…
拿起我买了还没看的书…
读一读… 充实多一点了!!
我发现…
我想他… 啊啊… 

死穴

天啊! 最近被点中死穴!
惨了! 心情很不舒服!
雯茹,你要加油! 
不可以气馁!

先把工作搞好先吧!
加油!

Dream!!

Chasing dream!!!
Must get it!!!
Lets chase together!!!


Besides, i hope to be there with you! ❤️


I am lost

Recently, i was thinking all the time...
Geting lost last few days.
Today i think is getting better! Honostly said, i really dislike to go KL for the life! I feel i will unhappy at there!
Yes, i will say the job i intend to do is over there! Yes, "the opportunity is grap by yourself not coming itself", it true!! But i try look in it ady! There is limited place to let me join in as well! Why why why!!! 
Feeling lost...
He is the one make me feel i should go chase the things i want! So i thinking back to go KL! But i think more and more... I know there is suffer to me! I m scare to going KL, compare to Singapore i m not scare! Why got tis kind of feeling???

Yesterday hang out with my internship fren another say my coursemate..
They keep on talking about working... Damn, can i escape on it for a moment!!
It make me feel more stress
At ytd i heard 1 words... Banking job is easy to get replace... And actually we did'nt learn much things on our internship.. Well, after i heard, my feel is "is correct pun" but i till like to work on banking feild... Mayb i din work on accounting feild before.. I cannot judge anythings pun...
But it sound right if we work on banking job for 2 years then go apply finance department of company mayb is consider none of experience!!!

Well, sumtime i was thinking am i wrong to reject collection department's offer?!
But think deeply the job is easy get replace by others also... And the team turnover rate is so geli... Besides friends around is block me to accept!!
I am true frendship to them, i think the do so to me as well!! If the offer is MY i may accept!!

I am lost cos tis is my 2nd chance to start over!! So?!
Should i go try on accounting feild and gain tat experience?!

Arghhhhh!!!
Another words given by senior
The feild you like x= suitable to you
The job u x like may suitable to you
Dream is fix one, but plan must flexible and turn left and right to reach your dream!!

Wen Ru, think back your dream?!
Oversea! Explore to the world...
Think on your dream!!

野心?放在另一个地方吧…

一份小小的心意

昨天弄了40多包的巧克力cornflake 
弄了3个钟头多
从买材料到制作,包装…
自己坚持的完成它…
愿我的心意大家都收到!

感谢公司的同事一直以来的爱戴…

我最不开心的时候… 是工作让我慢慢的好起来…
很开心认识到这么一班好同事…
交了几个好友!

谢谢!

我没有选择留下… 因为我知道我不适合也不是很喜欢…
希望我可以得到我想要的!

加油!


My dear DBIS sifu

I hv 2 sifu in my internship at OCBC collection department
The 1st one i get approach is Yeok Kim, she is serius in working but is kind and funny!! Plus plus skinny and cute!!
The 2nd one is Gilbert, i get approach with him in sudden!! Besides, he thought my name is Rachel!! He always funny with me, is fun!! 
2 of them teach me alots of things! Even I have problem I feel great to ask and tell them!!
Both of them bring me great memory as well!! Especially the last 3 month of my internship!!
I have no paiseh to them!! They fun with me always!! And tat time new member join our DBIS family!! DBIS is complicate and mahuan but i hv learn sumthings and fun with the family!!
Thanks the gift given by my 2 sifu!! Is mark my end of internship and a meaning gift to me!!

24th July 2014

今日教训
不需要太在意别人讲的话…
他不是当事人… 不代表当事人的意思!

Coffee talk

I love coffee!!
I like to try different type of coffee!!
Coffee can reduce my stresss..
As usual coffee in starbucks...
But the best coffee i was thinking is the coffee prepare by self or prepare by the love one...
You can control the taste, how many shot and the level of sweetness tat you want!

A nice coffee talk is the best side dish with coffee...
A nice person in the talk is the best main course...
Book may be my another good side dish too... But nowdays almost all cafe is very noise!!

Thanks for the great people sudden meet up for coffee breaks!!
Very very thank you to accompany on my alone Saturday and treat me a coffee!
Actually, I am surprise your suddenly ON!!
Tis is the second time you treat me, our second coffee talk als!!
Thanks yea buddy!!


我突然哭了?!

聊着聊着…
我哭了?
我有点搞不清那原因…
我告诉他是因为快要离开公司了,所以不舍得…
但是我知道应该不只这些…
可能加上他不去下星期的晚餐吧?
讨厌,弄哭我…
但是真的很不舍得大家…


那件是一直纠结在我心里?
我应该要怎样? 
有时候觉得会失败的感觉…
天啊… 


如果我爱你… 我可能爱上你了!

如果我爱你,只要知道你在那里,知道你健康,知道这份感情并没增加负累,知道能在某一日见到你,就可以了。如果我爱你,就按照你认为安全舒服的方式,拥有你。——布洛《如果我爱你》

离开

离开这公司 往另一个地方发展…
这离开并不要太伤感… 
我们还是会联络的…
可能我的离开 会让我们更加靠近…
减少不必要的摩擦 (其实现在也没有摩擦),但是公私不分的感觉不是很好… 不喜欢
各自发展… 彼此支持… 不是更好吗?

希望我一切顺利! 

我们就享受当下… 顺其自然


当我觉得我可以了, 我也会勇敢走去!


太阳花 照亮我们的生活,美丽我们的人生… 我希望我有在你的生活添加色彩…
一起加油吧!


7th of July

Yeah! 今天是槟城假期!没有工作!
陪Cindy 搞到自己累到…
算了… 朋友嘛!

看到她,我脑海里又有另一种领悟…
她因为爱情搞到自己借酒消愁… 还吐
为什么搞到这样…
回想我失恋时也很堕落… 但是还好我还算理智… 最严重是哭到不像人… 哈哈
我庆幸我用2个月的时间走出来… 祖母,我知道你在保佑我… 你的离去让我醒悟… 
男朋友不是你生命最重要的… 

看看他如何对我… 我以前太笨了!

这几个月过得蛮开心的!
开心多过不开心… 
庆幸认识一班很愉快,很照顾我的同事… 
认识更多人… 

最近,慢慢的肯定自己心里的想法… 
是,我是喜欢他…
但是,我现在不敢面对爱情…
有恐惧感…
当我靠近他我的心跳会跳的很快… 
以前都没有这样的感觉… 
有时候觉得在初恋的感觉… 爱情萌芽的感觉… 似有似无… 暧昧… 一点点东西就开心到… 
我的天… 我既然有这样的感觉…
跟他真的太多相似… 我有时候真的不能相信… 
他说爱情对他不是现在… 我也不敢行动什么…
身边的朋友都一直卖他的好… 我也不知道要给什么反应…

有人说我们行为就像一对情侣… “难道你们两没有感觉吗?”
我现在开始享受单身… 两个人没有责任的做好朋友也不错嘛?! 彼此鼓励和关心对方… 一起朝自己的目标迈进!


如果说有人爱与疼自己,哪个女生不要呢? 但这些都要看缘分和时机…

爱情… 一门学不完的学问…


今天 Michael 生日… 生日快乐!!

Is July...

While accompany a rich+siao cha bo...
Always make me broke..
She now is drunk...
She was crazy on drunking after she get broke up...
She always like tat... Not taking care on herself...
Put love on her priority..
Why must need a lover?!
Her mood all depends on love?! Why?!
Why dun do somethings for your own not bcos of your lover?!

Sigh.... I feel she hurt...
Wat can i do just accompany her!! 

While i know she still love her ex...
I know wat type of guys she want...
Pls dun threaten me with my deep deep secrect... I am week on it!! I not dare to intro any guys for u d...

30th of June



Since 20th of January I enter OCBC having my internship...
I gain alots!! Train up myself to work on when i am super down moment!!
I am stand up still!! 
Office politics office talk more to see.. Till more to learn!!
Hope i am gaining in the right path and be improve always!!

Blessing!!

The most valuable i gain is a gang of nice colleague!
All treat me as a small small girl!! 

1 more month to go!! I start miss it!!

The GAME: Clash of Clans


I start play tis game from early of 2014...
Starting i was randomly ply.
Coincidently, i meet a badge of colleague ply on it als.
So i join their clan to be group together.
Tis game is one of the game i play quite long. 
Even candy crush i play 6 months and stop ady. I feel i cnt stand on an game such long one.
The longest game tat i play from before till now i think is soduku only kua?! Muahaha

Well today we hving battle day and lose ady.
The 1st time we lose in our war... 
Well strong enemy i would like to said.



我其实很单纯

其实我有很多时候都很单纯…
我的性格可能会有点像男生… 
但是就是喜欢的东西,就喜欢很难解释…

以前都认为有一个爱自己多过我爱他的男朋友会比较幸福…
我慢慢的讨厌这个说法了…
我从以前到现在喜欢过3个人,另一个说法是暗恋…
我的第一和二段感情都是对方主动的…
第一个是多年朋友变成情人再变成朋友,因为他离开马来西亚了… 在一起不到一年… 没有什么 是puppy love
第二段是我现在最伤的一段… 让我压力也很伤心的… 我以为他爱我先所以我会比较幸福… 结果因为他我变成盲目了…变成不是我去了…

看过一句话
当你发现你暗恋的人也喜欢你,是一件幸福的是…


讲回我喜欢的人… 
让我有喜欢的有2个,心跳加速的有1个…
小学朋友一个…曾经喜欢… 很久没有联络了… 无意中我知道他喜欢过我的同学… 喜欢他是很久的是了… 现在没有什么… 没有做过什么表示
第2个是大学学长… 蛮好看… 跳舞 认识的… 但我知道他喜欢我的学姐朋友… 哈哈 但是他现在跟我另一个学姐在一起… 我也没有做什么行动…
第3个 有让我心跳加速的… 跟他有很多共同点… 我到底对他又如何… 我也不懂他对我是如何… 但他在众人前都否认不可能… 我知道他现在没有想要有爱情先… 但是我也很想给他知道我接下来我可能要远距离爱?! 


我恐惧爱情… 没有很渴望…
但是越到一个让我有如此心跳加速的你应该是第一个… 他是我爱的?!


我从来没有为我爱的去表达…
我不懂也没有信心去争取… 
我是否要为我爱的勇敢一次?

知己 VS 情侣

知己 与 情侣 的分别就是那一个责任…
异性知己往往可能可以给你更好的意见… 相比同性的…
跟他有一种说不完的话题… 是看谁先开口…
各自有各自喜欢的东西… 虽然很多时候会一样… 但不一致时还是会尊重对方的看法…

他跟别的给我的感觉很不一样… 第一印象他是一个宅男,但是其实很不像咯…
很好说话… 认识他久了,我们变成每天斗嘴… 他整天骂我 siao cha bo...
哈哈… 我已经没有什么骂他了,但他还是…

还有一个月左右… 我就要离开了…
不舍得 同事们…

不懂还有没有机会见到呢…

我写不下了… 

传•言

他的说过现在没有想要…
他也回应几次的不可能…

我也知道我们之间现在不是那种关系…

他的不可能,不是,没有东西
提醒了我自己不要想太多…
简简单单的关系… 好友难寻…

但是,
在别人眼里已经是情侣的行为…
但,
我觉得还好…
我有时候搞不懂我到底有没有感觉?!
可能我有一点恐惧了吧?!
但是跟他真的很开心…
有种讲不完的感觉…
感觉很舒服… 个有个的看法… 但很多看法很像…

其实我现在已经不敢在公司跟他有什么接触了…

在公司的传言,传到多姿多彩到…
我无语跟他们…

但我们私下还是保持我们的联络…

还有一个月又一个星期…
我就要离开了…
很不舍得,但是不舍得的是同事罢了…

希望还会跟大家保持联系…

梦里见到他…

梦见他啦… 我既然梦见王子
天啊!
他在别人眼里是王子, 但是我不是白雪公主,只是一个很普通的灰姑娘...

在这次的梦里,梦到跟他牵手叻…

在沿着去某个地方他牵起我的手
后来还十指紧扣着…

梦是梦… 醒来了 还是这样…
哈哈…

No emo recently!!

Recently not much emo...
Just abit stress...
Well... Quite full with laugh!!

Like!!
Haha
Is time to work hard on my study!!

Karyao babe!!

Internship end soon...
I think i will miss those funny colleague and seniors!!!

听•唱•歌

最近都一直接触音乐…
昨晚听妈妈碎碎念后,心情很烦…
我脑海里出现… 如果我不在家你们会怎样…
虽然表面说让我出去闯… 但其实我担心的是你们!
haiz
矛盾!
告诉自己不要想太多!
Moody 的心情 加上 压力 我选择听歌和唱歌去啦…

最近有一点狂听歌
K 我近期大爱的 Birdy 的 skinny love, wings, all about you......

一直唱 一直唱…
唱到12点了还在唱…

突然某人回 watapps... 
有跟他 heha 啦
结果 他 recommend 了几首歌给我…

让我爱上的有一首 就是 Trust you - 伊藤由奈 …
OMG… 喜欢这首歌!

好听!

I'm waiting for your love
I love you!!! 
I trust you!!!

谢谢你的推荐!

雯茹 ah loo ❤️

请我的第一杯咖啡

哈哈…
他实行他的承诺…
请我喝咖啡…
老实讲 真的很不好意思!
但很谢谢你…
heha 了 1个小时多!



So near yet till far

Feeling near sometime!!
But far sometime as well!

I cnt confrim the feeling!
Possible but how was it!
I gonna leave soon...
Will get far and far if nothings...

June 2014 • new month

New month!!!
Single life go on!!
Intern life till going on!!
Enjoy my life!
Happy always!!
Good luck always!!

实习 倒数2个月

距离实习结束还有2个月而已…

开始有点不舍得了…

不舍得很多同事…

要珍惜接下来的2个月…

加油宝贝!

传言是真的吗?

最近听到很多传言…


Emmm
还记得,第一天在公司就拒绝你的邀请… 我都一直记得因为感到很不好意识…

我不确定当下我的感觉… 可能是我不敢想太多… 会害怕失去一个朋友…

但是我很敬佩你,你有想法,拿CFA!! Thumb up!!

自昨晚跟你聊了一下,我发现我们向往相似的目标跟未来…

我以前的包袱已经没有了…
只剩下 父母要担心!
有时候很希望有个伴一起去拼!
从聊天中发现其实你也蛮压力的!
加油吧!

521 脱牙套

哦…
刚才脱牙套了!
好不舍得哦!
感觉少了什么!

但现在笑起来很不想我了… 呵呵



回想 从之前还没绑牙开始
每次去诊所都是自己一个人…
有时看到很多都是有伴侣陪…(大部分绑牙的都是女生)
而我都是一个人…
尽管我不是单身时也是一个去,一个人等…

我独立了 2 年… 
现在都要结束了…
我还是一个去回,我应该鼓舞我的勇气跟独立 还是 伤心一路的孤单?!

哈哈…
都过了! 为自己全新出发吧!

开心每一天,还对得起自己!

520 ❤️ 2014

2014年5月20日

520 这个数字在爱情里带有爱的意识…

最近这几天 心情灰灰的
并不是 emo 只是有一些东西在烦…

昨天是最烦的一个晚上
加上一个人在家,没有人可以说,自己就一直想…

到底我要的路是这样吗?
有一些东西也很不舍得…
整晚反反复复 醒了又睡回…
到了清晨 我感觉 down down… 就想找人谈谈
清晨时候就让我想到一个人
他就起身起得特别早…
结果他没空,在赶功课…
那就算了…
但他的回应跟提醒… 有让我感觉好一些…

还好去office 还有几个he ha 的同事…

自我换位后,大多都只是在email里讲话…
但讲得比以前多了… 因为大家真的没有空面对面讲话 却 可以在email里狂无聊对话… 哈哈
这也是我换位后的新乐趣…


明天 21日, 可能要脱牙套了…
有点紧张… 好不舍得…
但不确定一定脱pun lah...

哈哈

520 爱爱我的家人和朋友…

希望明年的 520 是有情人相伴… 💌

分享 • 当下情况吧?!

 Sometimes, to confess a personal feeling really too difficult, too afraid to even now this relationship have lost. 有时候,要坦白对某个人的感觉真的太难了,因为太害怕连现在这种关系都失去。 

分享 • 经历之一

对于一个男人来说,“我都道歉了你还要怎样”,这种态度是绝对要不得的。你要不然就别道歉,要道歉就得是真心的。别觉得自己好像道个歉有多了不起似的。而且,并不是所有事情道歉就有用的。女人身上并没有一种开关,一按下去就立刻开心。道歉不仅需要语言,还需要行动。—— 冷爱 

世界就是这么小…

世界好小 好小…
他 她 是认识的… 我 她 他 也认识的…

这可能叫缘分吧…


遇到我第一个暗恋的人… 好久了…
也忘记为什么对他有喜欢的感觉…

但,他是让我记忆深刻的同学…

去年见回他后,让我勾起很多回忆…

现在可能是好朋友…
他在我心情最差时,让我开心起来…

也要谢谢他,间接性帮我走出情伤,不然我现在还是以泪洗脸…

Haiz…

不要烦了… 见一步走一步吧!

搞好我的工作先吧…

我梦见他…

他出现在我梦…
出现不久,一下子

第一幕我是需要拥抱时,他给了我一个温暖的拥抱…
很温暖,加上这里要下雨,冷冷的天气

但我惊醒梦境…

却好像很快的又入梦了

过后我是感觉在一个室内比赛场还是飞机场内…

遥远的看到他…
但他的身影已经要转身离去的…

我追上去,
看到一个女生在旁边推行李似的

我没有叫他
只是从跑步的步伐换成走路…

看着他很兴奋的走走跳跳…
他顿时转身看后面,然后站着…
走向我来…
我也向前走去…
他轻轻的推了我一下…
我问他:你要怎样?
他顿时牵起我的手,跟我说:等我回来…

然后他塔了我肩膀,走到一个入口…
他就说:我走了,到了跟你说一声…
你回去小心啊…
我就点一点头,看他走进去了…

好不舍得啊… 结果是梦一场…

My last dean list?!

Oh it may my last dean list!!
Last exam sem in my degree life...

Repost: Eason concert

Well...
My story till fresh in my mind...
It is a story i wish to come true mayb...
And ngam ngam is my frens bday...
Tat become a reason for i win this for my frens...
It is one of my memory... I love it!!

Miss you my dear real frenz


Eason Life Concert

hey peeps...

Great news today after back from injection.
Check out the mail, i receive a mail said i wont Eason Concert ticket!!

OMG, i feel very happy.
but feel dilemma!!

I hv strong feel wanna go watch, but i promise my fren go cameron together ady.
I have to give up either one.

i give up eason concert due to 2 reason.
1. friendship is important than idol, friends will accompany u till the end.
2. the ppl in my story is not around

Wish to go with you, my dear real friends, who accompany me when i m down!
I dunno what will happens to us, but the story i will remember it and only u and me.
i love the friendship we had now, no stress!!

Good luck to you!

Happening March

March is not good to me!!

the world is happenning...
my family as well...

grandma is pass away last Sunday!

over the feb and mar my emotional and feeling is like a boat...
down down... wanna up abit.. get down again!

haiz...
now till busy on many stuff...

beep... pass back..

i will back again!!

Internship: Gambadet

Today get found a mistake done on monday by senior...
Miss out 1 key in!!
Feel wrongly on myself!!
Recently work load is abit high, few taks on hand!!
Especially skip tracing, many process of checking and update entry need to write...
Always tired when do skipper tracing!

Karyao in internship!!
Do my best!!

二月了...

很快,二月了...
努力规划我的未来...
没有很好的方向 yet...

努力赚钱! 努力存钱!

朝目标迈进!!

还有 5个月+3星期

考试成绩顺利!!!

1 down, 2 to go...

No comment on today paper..

But abit emo din receive his SMS...

考试! 哪里可能不紧张??

讲不紧张是假的啦..
但,也考这么多次... 也习惯...
还是会紧张!!
等下就考这个学期的第一张!!
加油!!

Relax relax...
IF see u later...

Emo!! 认命吧...

得不到就是得不到!!
先天不足,后天不够努力得来的后果就是这样!!

加油吧,茹茹!!

足够就好!!

Bless me!!

好忙哦

11月快接近尾声了...
这个月很忙
考试,功课,儿塞们,工作..... 等等
haiz...

我忙到要跟他庆祝生日的时间都不多..
过几天再补回哦

手上还有很多份 儿塞们 还没赶完..

阿茹,加油!


路过一下罢了....

分享

世上不爱的理由有很多:忙、累、为你好。。。。
而爱的表现只有一个:就想和你在一起!- 鲁豫

November, so fast

So fast, now ady november!!
After 2 month I gonna start my internship!!
Oh gosh, I left a short period for tis semester only!! I will miss my coursemate very much!!
Haiz!!
I would say my internship offer consider settle down!! Now just wait the offer letter!!
Now is end of the semester break, next week gonna hv 2 mid term test!!
And rushing assignment like hell!!
Aliluya lo!! Really crazy!!

Nw I super busy with study and working!! Aduii

Get fat tis 2 day ady!! No time keep fit pun!!

Karyao la babe!!

My love always be with me!
Cheer and good nite!

I am stress with no love

Recently getting stress from study,work and my time for love...
I am reserve the time to have love end up with nothing
I need a guy who can make me cheer up without worry and stress.
I feel more down when I see tis..
Start with a excited mood and end with a down mood.. I feel wanna crying today!!
I wanna some care and love.
Even paktor, can I have some?!

I need some?!

I am stress now!
I lost my direction, I need ppl guide me walk on,pls!!!

病况中

Arghh...
感冒 微发烧
发冷中

不只身体生病
头脑都烦病了..

有几个决定要做

钱啊...

我需要工作赚点钱.. 
不然

*正在筹备有朋友一起搞的 online business
*找 intern 公司以及处理实习的文件
*找 part time 工作
*更换我的老公 dslr
*维持爱情的保鲜期
*做功课,读书
*哦!! 大条了! 要减肥 还有 去印...

嘿在... (haiz...)

加油,雯茹

Get my 1st one

Really paiseh to said I get my 1st Dean list on my university life!
But it mayb the only 1 =(
Well,
I hope tis sem I get do my best to boost up my CGPA!!

Blessing me!!

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