A regret in my 1st Year!!

Thinking back..... my 1st Year in U!!
colorful with my dancing life!!
YES! i like it!!
but actually i had a regret, i guess many ppl din realize....

at the starting point, actually i wish to join 理大升学辅导组 de...
but becos lifu and dance group having at the same time, so i need to give up one!!
at last i choose dance group...
regret?? NO!!

just regret i cannot join both!!



RU, wake up ady lolz..
focus on the point lolz...
other thing just leave there first!!

the ppl i should not wait anymore,
the ppl i sorry to,
the decision havent make,
the activity i busy with,
the event i wish to join....
all the thing throw away 1st!!
WAKE UP and STUDY!!

Hwaiting!!

Zi Qing Birthday ^.^

Done my social!!
back from Zi Qing's birthday celebration...
his big day havnt reach but we celebrate for him early...
only our penang ppl celebrate with him...
not much ppl..
only zi qing, chi ngan, khay, mun , sher lan and me only...
just a dinner..
but fun...
only a few photo... but we focus on quality...
actually there is many shoot..
just many blur de... keke...

anyway... i m happy and feel nice with my dear fren!!

Happy birthday Zi Qing!! (Zi Qing gor gor!!)

treat myself better =)

tis few day...
i ignore my own health..
i m wrong...

i just throw all the thing away 1st..
focus on my study, ying xin activity and dance group thing...
enough!!

thank the ppl always support me!!
anyway, feel touch on the ppl who care me recently..

THIS is me?!

wuhuu...
last week before study week!!
one week only have 5days..
but all my 5day is full with many stuff..
meeting... meeting...
diarrhea... diarrhea...
i think i nearly fell sick liao!!
tired!! really tired!!

bad new from there..
really make my mood unstable..
tis few day.. the happiness on my face was not full happy at all...
inhibit all my sadness and worry..

sometime, i was asking myself.. this is the life i wan?? or i m getting force to do!!!
i lost!!

since tat day, i get the news from my fren...
i more understand and know i should treasure the ppl i care and the ppl care me!!
till remember tat day..
at noon i decide to stop it, cure my wound, adjust my thinking..
but at night, i get the news, i cry for it, and i lost my direction again!!

i am lost again!!
stop?
treasure?

i dunno wat should i do?!
want to stop it to let my mind clear and blank..
so that i can save all my study things!!

haiz..
THIS is me??!
Is this my life?!

dunno??  unknown??
hope someone come help me!!

'I am. I'm afraid.

不喊痛，不一定没感觉。

不要求，不一定没期待。

不落泪，不一定没伤痕。

不说话，不一定没心声。

沉默，不代表自己没话说。

离开，不代表自己很潇洒。

快乐，不代表自己没伤心。 

幸福，不代表自己没痛过。

R.I.P. i will miss u!!

Jia Qi, my dear fren!!
not a closer fren but is my fren!!


how i wrote tis post?? i hv no idea!!
just wanna say i m very very very regret...
Regret I din go to meet HER yesterday!! really late for me!! 
i will remember u forever!!


i remember i till get her reply on wed morning!!
tis morning till sending her a sorry msg about i cannot go meet them at the gathering...
i dunno that is the last meet?!




6 April 2011
i will remember tis date, remember you!!

LOVE & LIKE is difference =)

one of my frens asked me..
u LOVE him or LIKE him??
for me ans is L... ... ...

wrong??!!
stop it??!!
should be??!!

now i cannot understand what he thinking in deep!!
i know he loved someone...
i know some other one loved him...
me?? nothing!!
WAKE UP girl!!
many ppl till care about me??!!

when i m down, she knew, she care, she warm me...
when i m crying, he lend me his shoulder, he care me some of the time, he is really busy....
when i need some, he help me, i m the most he know and he care within our small junior..
when i want to spoke my deep, she willing to hear, she advise me, she care me..
when i m tired, they support me... they cheer for me!!
when i m good, they praise me, they support me, they proud of me!!
when i m in this world, i know they love me, they care me and they "sayang" me!!
when happens anything, my friends all will stand out for me!!
i know them, i care them, cos they care me als!!

i think that is the 1st and the last gift between two of us!!
not willing also need to face the true..
hurt need time to cure!!

end of 1st L... ... ... in 1st Year of U!!

FAKE-ing happiness

dunno why, i wont act i m so sad in front of many ppl!!
many ppl say i m strong and tough, and always smile =)
after i cut my hair, many ppl cannot recognize me in the 1st few second!!
but they say there till can recognize me afterward, recognize me from my smile ^^

I always show my happiness in front others... but sometime i am not!!
cover myself is the best way to let ppl dunno whether is sad or happy?!

FAKE?? fake similing??
no!!!
just HIDE it!!

EMOing...

Can I hv immediate LANDSCAPE??

I am waiting it!!

累了吧？？

文娱忙了！
Assignment 忙了！
生日过了！
很多庆功也过了！
但是还是很多东西还没忙完！

今年的生日给自己买了一个很贵的礼物- DSLR EOS 1100D
因为 Buget 的问题，我每办法买我想的 EOS 550D...
还记得那天，Ka Vun 讲他的 EOS 550D 跌价３００零吉....
感到不好意识帮他买这样贵！！Sorry!!
带了我的新宝贝回家，在家不知道要拍什么？！
我也很累，没有感觉要拍什么．．．

haiz... recently really tired..
busy this busy that.. wanna get a time meal with friend pun hard T.T

now..
thinking the gift fro senior how??
thinking the how the perform on monday.. just let them 5ppl on stage..
thinking the plan for next sem?!
thinking wat to do at 6th apr de meeting?!
thinking the plan of performance in next sem!!
thinking tat, can i just dance, dunwan do other thing?! i just want to dance!!
thinking how settle my hair?! cut it or let it??
thinking this words "值得"... worth to do it?? worth to join it??
thinking have a shoulder to let me lay on!! (ah ling, u go back liao... miss u leh!!)
thinking wat to wear for 2mr.. whole noon till nite.. oh.. and morning.. easy to get sunburn lolz..
haiz...
tired until i wanna cry...
can i throw all thing away??

i start worry on my final exam ady...
since now can i just touch and go everything, just focus on my study!!
help ar!!

i want hv a talk with someone ar!!
I AM LOST!! arghh!!!

what is the most important thing to me now?! T.T

0330

Yo listen up, this is my tragic story, just to break into my heart (check it) 

I still cannot erase you
I keep thinking about you
I really miss you
I cannot sleep at all at night
The sound of the raindrops hitting on the window of my heart 
The place that you left
I really miss you
And I cannot sleep at all at night

The view of your back, leaving me on this rainy road
Because I couldn't do anything again,
I regret it again everyday. I'm sorry,
I pray, I want you to be back. 
I can't. I can't stand it. I cannot stand a day without you. 
My tears are falling again. 
Will I be able to forget you ? When will I be like that till ? 

I still cannot erase you
I keep thinking about you
I really miss you
I cannot sleep at all at night
The sound of the raindrops hitting on the window of my heart 
The place that you left
I really miss you
And I cannot sleep at all at night

Oh tonight again, tonight again, her

I keep thinking of you at night, I cannot sleep
Why did I turn on this love show
The distance between us has increased
I was the servant of this love
Why did we fight ? Why were we like that ? 
Did you lose the sight ? We used to be in love. 
Why am I stuck in this moment ? The one I need is you, silly. 

You, drooping your shoulders
You, taking a rest on the ground
You, hitting your chest in frustration
You, praying to the heavens with your hands clasped
I think of you getting up. Let's forget and erase all our bad memories. 
(I'm sorry) How would you ? I cannot say anything besides 'I'm sorry'. 

I still cannot erase you
I keep thinking about you
I really miss you
I cannot sleep at all at night
The sound of the raindrops hitting on the window of my heart 
The place that you left
I really miss you
And I cannot sleep at all at night

Oh tonight again, tonight again, her

You and I, don't cut our cord. 
Don't deny our r²π 
Come to me, everything is fine now. 
We will start everything over, over again. 

I cannot sleep at all at night

I still cannot erase you
I keep thinking about you
I really miss you
I cannot sleep at all at night
The sound of the raindrops hitting on the window of my heart 
The place that you left
I really miss you
And I cannot sleep at all at night

A Song.... ♥ For me ♥

Artist :: U-Kiss (유키스)

Album Information :: EP, Studio
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Title Track :: 0330

Genre :: Hip Hop
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Release Date :: March 30, 2011

Planning | Distribution :: (주)앤에이취이엠쥐 | Loen Entertainment

Hangul and simple romanization

yo listen up this is my tragic story just to break in my heart

나 아직도 너를 지울 수 없어

na ajikdo noreul jiul su obso

자꾸자꾸 니가 생각나

jakkujakku niga senggangna

니가 너무 보고 싶어

niga nomu bogo sipo

밤새 한숨도 잘 수 없어

bamse hansumdo jal su obso

내 맘 창문을 두드리는 빗소리

ne mam changmuneul dudeurineun bissori

니가 떠나 버린 그자리

niga ttona borin geujari

너무나도 그리워서

nomunado geuriwoso

밤새 한숨도 잘 수 없어 난

bamse hansumdo jal su obso nan

빗길 비켜 지나가는 너의 뒷 모습 / 아무 것도 할 수 없는 나는 거듭

bitgil bikyo jinaganeun noye dwit moseup / amu gotdo hal su omneun naneun godeup

해서 매일 난 또 후회를 해 미안해 / 기도해 I want you to be back

heso meil nan tto huhwereul he mianhe / gidohe I want you to be back

I can't 견딜 수 없어 네가 / 없는 하루니까 참을 수 없어 눈가에 눈물 흘러 내가

I can't gyondil su obso nega / omneun harunikka chameul su obso nun-gae nunmul heullo nega

again 너를 잊을 수 있을까 / 언제까지 나는 이럴까

again noreul ijeul su isseulkka / onjekkaji naneun irolkka

나 아직도 너를 지울 수 없어

na ajikdo noreul jiul su obso

자꾸자꾸 니가 생각나

jakkujakku niga senggangna

니가 너무 보고 싶어

niga nomu bogo sipo

밤새 한숨도 잘 수 없어

bamse hansumdo jal su obso

내 맘 창문을 두드리는 빗소리

ne mam changmuneul dudeurineun bissori

니가 떠나 버린 그자리

niga ttona borin geujari

너무나도 그리워서

nomunado geuriwoso

밤새 한숨도 잘 수 없어 난

bamse hansumdo jal su obso nan

오 이런 오늘밤도 오늘밤도 Her

o iron oneulbamdo oneulbamdo Her

밤새 너만 생각해 나는 잘 수 없어 / why did i turn on this love show

bamse noman senggakhe naneun jal su obso / why did i turn on this love show

너와 나의 사인 멀어졌어 / 내가 이 사랑의 하인이었어

nowa naye sain morojyosso / nega i sarang-eui hainiosso

Why did we fight 우린 왜 이랬는데

Why did we fight urin we irenneunde

Did you lose the sight 우린 사랑했는데

Did you lose the sight urin saranghenneunde

내가 왜 이 순간 멈춰 있는데 바보야 내가 필요한 건 바로 너야

nega we i sun-gan momchwo inneunde baboya nega piryohan gon baro noya

어깨가 축 늘어져 있는 너 / 한숨만 땅 꺼지게 쉬는 너

okkega chuk neurojyo inneun no / hansumman ttang kkojige swineun no

답답한 가슴만 탕탕 치는 너 / 두손 모아 하늘에게 기도 하는 너

dapdaphan gaseumman tangtang chineun no / duson moa haneurege gido haneun no

일거라고 모습이 나는 상상이 가 / 우리 다 잊자 지우자 나쁜 기억들을 다

ilgorago moseubi naneun sangsangi ga / uri da itja jiuja nappeun giokdeureul da

(I'm sorry) 너가 어떨지 알아 / 미안하단 말 밖에 할 수 없는 나

(I'm sorry) noga ottolji ara / mianhadan mal bakke hal su omneun na

나 아직도 너를 지울 수 없어

na ajikdo noreul jiul su obso

자꾸자꾸 니가 생각나

jakkujakku niga senggangna

니가 너무 보고 싶어

niga nomu bogo sipo

밤새 한숨도 잘 수 없어

bamse hansumdo jal su obso

내 맘 창문을 두드리는 빗소리

ne mam changmuneul dudeurineun bissori

니가 떠나 버린 그자리

niga ttona borin geujari

너무나도 그리워서

nomunado geuriwoso

밤새 한숨도 잘 수 없어 난

bamse hansumdo jal su obso nan

오 이런 오늘밤도 오늘밤도 Her

o iron oneulbamdo oneulbamdo Her

You & I 우리의 끈 놓지마 / don't deny our r²π

You & I uri-ye kkeun notjima / don't deny our square root

내게 와 이제 다 괜찮아 / 다시 다시 다 모든걸 시작하는 거야

nege wa ije da gwenchana / dasi dasi da modeun-gol sijakhaneun goya

밤새 한숨도 잘 수 없어

bamse hansumdo jal su obso

나 아직도 너를 지울 수 없어

na ajikdo noreul jiul su obso

자꾸자꾸 니가 생각나

jakkujakku niga senggakna

니가 너무 보고 싶어

niga nomu bogo sipo

밤새 한숨도 잘 수 없어

bamse hansumdo jal su obso

내 맘 창문을 두드리는 빗소리

ne mam changmuneul dudeurineun bissori

니가 떠나 버린 그자리

niga ttona borin geujari

너무나도 그리워서

nomunado geuriwoso

밤새 한숨도 잘 수 없어 난

bamse hansumdo jal su obso nan

♥♥♥

给一个人的一封信...

TO, XXX

除了 Sorry ， 还是 Sorry....
你一直都是为朋友着想的那个...
也许很多人当你的好是一种理所当然，但我不是，真的不是！！
这次，我真的很亏欠你！！ 对不起！
上个星期我发生了很多事情，不知道我应该怎样... 我很压力...
其实不是我不想要，是我无能为力... 我要对我做的东西负责...
我知道我不应该随便的答应任何东西...
这次真的对不起你啊....


我真的想不到你把我放在 LIST 里面，
我知道你可以帮我得到它，
可是我辜负了你！！
对不起！！
朋友！！

虽然，你说没关系，但我还觉得对不起你！！
我已忙昏了，自己的未来很乱... 不想去烦啊...

对不起，谢谢你！

From a girl who lost her focus!!

330!! my big day!!

wuhuu..
来不及在 3 月 30 日的时候，写我的 blog...
anyway...  i really enjoy wat i get tis 330!!
like it!!
dun want more!! but the thing i get.. i gain happiness and touch my heart so much!!
thank to all!!

i cnt write so much..
need to rush my homework!!
i will update in tis weekend!!

one word!!
HAPPY!!

Last, Happy birthday to me, Wen Ru
and
Thank you, Mummy!!
love u!!

left few more hours... ^.^

now...
29th April, nite..
just left few more hours... is my big day!!
not much different with normal day i think!!
all my best best best fren is not around penang..
and sum more 2mr i got class.. is morning class.. haiz..
330... a meaningful day for me and my family.. especially my mun..
but i had celebrate with her last saturday..
she said, if your fren wanna celebrate with u.. u go lah.. dun stay at home lah!!
thanks mum...
during my birthday.. i always stay at home to celebrate with my family..
and my fren will make early on late celebration..

but now!! i m inside my hostel.. facing my laptop, doing my homework!! ish..
plus.. no one call me out today pun... hng!!
if tmr can go back home i will go back!!

i hope i can have a awesome nite, tonight!!
will b a silent night?? i wonder??

1st birthday present in 2011 =)

a small gift.. from my little cousin...

Thank you!! 

remember my birthday... hehe...

i wont forget your one!! hehe

although is just a small toy, a small gift..

but touch my heart in deep!

muacksss... <3

Canon EOS 1100 D

Canon ~ ~ canon ~ ~
EOS ~ ~ EOS ~ ~
1100 ~ ~ 1100 ~ ~

wait it!!

haiz... fighting 2nite ar..
k book ar!!
stop online-ing..
study marco... karyao!!

IOP done...
small lian yi done..

2mr.. EXAM!! hwaiting!! =)

2 more days...

i know many ppl noted my big days...
haiz..
just left 2 more days...
but my time is full with many activity and studying..
there is no mood to plan or do anything..
the gift i sure receive is from my daddy and mummy wan..
but actually i should gv mummy a gift..
thinking to do it..
oh!! i still owe many ppl birthday gift ko..
need to ganti back after i m free lolz..
after tis week i need to plan many stuff als pun liao...
hope everything i hope i can make it!!

till now.. i still thinking to leave or to stay..
sumtime got i feeling wanna to leave.. cos i dunwan saw the thing i wan..
haiz.. many thing are driving my brain.. no time to think it als.. i hvnt reply ans als.. haiz..
if i stay because of a ppl.. m i stupid?! haiz T.T

back to the happy side..
last nite.. that was a big big big celebration (文娱大庆功）
nice to hv a chance to interact with others that we dunno so much...
wah..
from tat i realize most of our committee is lao gua lai de..
from tat i realize when they no serious is really nice and cute too.. haha..
from tat i realize.. oh.. ah pao just stay vy vy near to my house onli... haha..
from tat i realize.. many ppl know my name wor.. and call it ko tim..

tat nite once got ppl call me, for sure is for taking photo..
but luckily is got ask me take photo together too lah.. but most is call me take photo for them.. haha..

nice nite.. but our dance onli got 4 ppl... if more ppl come.. i guess it will more more fun..!!
woo..
i hope tis is not the ending point we know together.. it should the starting point...
glad that i know u all, glad that many of your know me!! (actually many ppl i dunno their name ko.. haha)

nite world.. sweet dream and fight it later!! =)

錯的人

明知道愛情並不牢靠 但是我還是拼命往裡跳

明知道再走可能是監牢 但是我還是相信只是煎熬

朋友都勸我不要不要 不要拿自己的幸福開玩笑

但是做人已經那麼累 假惺惺的想要逃

在愛裡連真心都不能給 這才真正的可笑

愛得太真 太容易 讓自己犧牲 太容易讓自己沉淪

太容易 不顧一切 滿是傷痕

我太笨 明知道你是錯的人

明知道這不是緣分 但是我還奮不顧身

明知道愛情並不牢靠 但是我還是拼命往裡跳

明知道再走可能是監牢 但是我還是相信只是煎熬

朋友都勸我不要不要 不要拿自己的幸福開玩笑

但是做人已經那麼累 假惺惺的想要逃

在愛裡連真心都不能給 這才真的真正的可笑

愛得太真 太容易 讓自己犧牲 太容易讓自己沉淪

太容易 不顧一切 滿是傷痕

我太笨 明知道你是錯的人

明知道這不是緣分 但是我還奮不顧身

可能 在愛裡面這樣算笨

可能 永遠沒有所謂永恆

但是我 不願放棄這裡面一點點可能 寧願笨也不想要悔恨

愛得太真 太容易 讓自己犧牲 太容易讓自己沉淪 太容易 不顧一切 滿是傷痕

我太笨 明知道你是錯的人 明知道這不是緣分 但我還是奮不顧身

我太笨 明知道你是錯的人 明知道這不是緣分 但我相信有點可能

还有 3 天!!

实话说，我不会很期待它的到来...
我的时间已经被很多东西填满了... T.T
今天，星期天要去文娱大庆功啦..
星期一要 Presentation lah.. is IOP - Individual Oral Presentation... lolx..
plus 联谊一下啦...
星期二要考试啦... marco mid-term.. scare.. hv to study vy vy hard!! kar yao!!
plus interview lah...
星期三，让我无负担的开心可以吗？？
星期四，理夜，要珍惜与老瓜 senior 的日子 lolz..
星期五，another presentation... arghh!!
星期六，练舞 plus meeting lah... (oh no, the time got problem.. i havent solve it.. i hv no time now lah T.T)

haiz..
tis week is pack als.. like last week.. pack till.. T.T
always rush assignment, prepare presentation, settle dance group stuff, practice dance, study for mid-term..
oh gosh.. i din study for my final yet..
summore.. meeting lah... gathering lah..
now.. only home hv nothing need me to worry or settle..
even at hostel i need to sumthing als.. and cnt sleep well well..
i damn love my home now!!

haiz.. fight for few week more!!
kar yao ar!!