What i am now?!

Sometimes,i get lose... Get confusing..

Actually wat i am now?!

Fresh graduate ppls.... Ish... Damn old?!

Omg... I really feel lost sumtime...

I know wat i like but cnt get it?!

I brave to go kl alone?! Ans is no... I m scare actually!!

I x scare go sg cos i hv believe fren there!! Feel not alone compare to kl!!

Stay penang 1st?! Is current plan... 

Think back my dream... Actually work is to chase my dream... I may just need money...

Well... I know wat job i prefer one... But i gonna go inversely... 

Tis job make me think on the bad people... Is wrong... Tis my career!! It control by me!!

1st i may scare to accept cos emotional cause!! 2nd now i start working phobia... Not much passion on work... Damn...

Once think the time of work... Omg... 7am... Quite early... But actually bring advantage lah!!!

Think it positively!!!

Hope the company become better n better... So i hv good feel on work!!

Try on it!!! Compare to collection it may better d!!! Karyao babe!!!

Ops... How about him?!

Yiii... My happiness will poping up with his conversation... Even just a small things...

I not ready yet!!! Pls gv me a time!! I will go for it when i sure and ready!!!

Be good on myself n my family!!

Take good care on my own health!!!

Dun let ppl worry!!!

I love you!!!

选择恐惧/困难症？

我近期越来越困难做决定了…

烦死人…

不想了…

As you said....

你说过，通常第一份工不是自己喜欢的…

我现在大多是为钱而工作…

但是这也是社会很普通的理由…

我不排除我会回collection的可能性

但是，暂时不是现在…

要给别的机会…

加油！加油！

投资，储蓄，未来，自我增值！

回报都是自己的！

还记得我推掉那个offer的原因，

其中一个是因为你… 可能说我傻…

但是，你告诉我不好留下时… 我也知道你为我好！

为了你，我要继续奋斗下去！

Untitled...

我真的想不到什么题目…

跟她 chat 可能是错误…

这也是事实？

很像被泼冷水的感觉…

我知道我已经慢了…

但是我就是希望我可以得到，结果 什么都没有…

我已经推了2 个offer....

我还有本事推嘛？

我很傻… 

但是我知道我想要的是什么!

希望在明天…

加油！

今天心情很低落…

我想念， 但是我需要靠自己！

穷—这是什么意思？

刚刚看了香港的真实故事剧… 《我们的天空》

看到香港的艰辛的一面…

再第四集 让我更加感触…

穷，让人生活变得更辛苦…

穷，也让人的勇气都磨灭掉…

钱不是万能，但是没有钱真的是很不能…

“外篇”

那不不是应该接受手上得到的 offer?!

Emmm

但，我知道我如果接受了，我会工作得很不愉快，比起来，我倒不如回去 collection?!

这么不开心… 我还要go ahead?!

Sigh....

烦恼一直都在…

我要放松心情…

很多的不确定…

周围的言语…

搞到我很压力…

我的压力最近飙高到很厉害…

我以前会外出松懈…

但是我现在没有心情外出…

想到花费… 钱… #}*%€*#*<}%*^

天啊！

领悟了就别去多想…

知道自己不喜欢就拒绝吧…

不然最后辛苦的还是自己…

雯茹加油! 

今天早上感觉自己很堕落…

但经过闲聊后…

拿起我买了还没看的书…

读一读… 充实多一点了!!

我发现…

我想他… 啊啊… 

死穴

天啊！ 最近被点中死穴!

惨了！ 心情很不舒服！

雯茹，你要加油！ 

不可以气馁！

先把工作搞好先吧!

加油！

Dream!!

Chasing dream!!!

Must get it!!!

Lets chase together!!!

Besides, i hope to be there with you! ❤️

I am lost

Recently, i was thinking all the time...

Geting lost last few days.

Today i think is getting better! Honostly said, i really dislike to go KL for the life! I feel i will unhappy at there!

Yes, i will say the job i intend to do is over there! Yes, "the opportunity is grap by yourself not coming itself", it true!! But i try look in it ady! There is limited place to let me join in as well! Why why why!!! 

Feeling lost...

He is the one make me feel i should go chase the things i want! So i thinking back to go KL! But i think more and more... I know there is suffer to me! I m scare to going KL, compare to Singapore i m not scare! Why got tis kind of feeling???

Yesterday hang out with my internship fren another say my coursemate..

They keep on talking about working... Damn, can i escape on it for a moment!!

It make me feel more stress

At ytd i heard 1 words... Banking job is easy to get replace... And actually we did'nt learn much things on our internship.. Well, after i heard, my feel is "is correct pun" but i till like to work on banking feild... Mayb i din work on accounting feild before.. I cannot judge anythings pun...

But it sound right if we work on banking job for 2 years then go apply finance department of company mayb is consider none of experience!!!

Well, sumtime i was thinking am i wrong to reject collection department's offer?!

But think deeply the job is easy get replace by others also... And the team turnover rate is so geli... Besides friends around is block me to accept!!

I am true frendship to them, i think the do so to me as well!! If the offer is MY i may accept!!

I am lost cos tis is my 2nd chance to start over!! So?!

Should i go try on accounting feild and gain tat experience?!

Arghhhhh!!!

Another words given by senior

The feild you like x= suitable to you

The job u x like may suitable to you

Dream is fix one, but plan must flexible and turn left and right to reach your dream!!

Wen Ru, think back your dream?!

Oversea! Explore to the world...

Think on your dream!!

野心？放在另一个地方吧…

一份小小的心意

昨天弄了40多包的巧克力cornflake 

弄了3个钟头多

从买材料到制作，包装…

自己坚持的完成它…

愿我的心意大家都收到！

感谢公司的同事一直以来的爱戴…

我最不开心的时候… 是工作让我慢慢的好起来…

很开心认识到这么一班好同事…

交了几个好友!

谢谢!

我没有选择留下… 因为我知道我不适合也不是很喜欢…

希望我可以得到我想要的！

加油！

My dear DBIS sifu

I hv 2 sifu in my internship at OCBC collection department

The 1st one i get approach is Yeok Kim, she is serius in working but is kind and funny!! Plus plus skinny and cute!!

The 2nd one is Gilbert, i get approach with him in sudden!! Besides, he thought my name is Rachel!! He always funny with me, is fun!! 

2 of them teach me alots of things! Even I have problem I feel great to ask and tell them!!

Both of them bring me great memory as well!! Especially the last 3 month of my internship!!

I have no paiseh to them!! They fun with me always!! And tat time new member join our DBIS family!! DBIS is complicate and mahuan but i hv learn sumthings and fun with the family!!

Thanks the gift given by my 2 sifu!! Is mark my end of internship and a meaning gift to me!!

24th July 2014

今日教训

不需要太在意别人讲的话…

他不是当事人… 不代表当事人的意思！

Coffee talk

I love coffee!!

I like to try different type of coffee!!

Coffee can reduce my stresss..

As usual coffee in starbucks...

But the best coffee i was thinking is the coffee prepare by self or prepare by the love one...

You can control the taste, how many shot and the level of sweetness tat you want!

A nice coffee talk is the best side dish with coffee...

A nice person in the talk is the best main course...

Book may be my another good side dish too... But nowdays almost all cafe is very noise!!

Thanks for the great people sudden meet up for coffee breaks!!

Very very thank you to accompany on my alone Saturday and treat me a coffee!

Actually, I am surprise your suddenly ON!!

Tis is the second time you treat me, our second coffee talk als!!

Thanks yea buddy!!

我突然哭了？！

聊着聊着…

我哭了？

我有点搞不清那原因…

我告诉他是因为快要离开公司了，所以不舍得…

但是我知道应该不只这些…

可能加上他不去下星期的晚餐吧？

讨厌，弄哭我…

但是真的很不舍得大家…

那件是一直纠结在我心里？

我应该要怎样？ 

有时候觉得会失败的感觉…

天啊… 

如果我爱你… 我可能爱上你了！

如果我爱你，只要知道你在那里，知道你健康，知道这份感情并没增加负累，知道能在某一日见到你，就可以了。如果我爱你，就按照你认为安全舒服的方式，拥有你。——布洛《如果我爱你》

离开

离开这公司 往另一个地方发展…

这离开并不要太伤感… 

我们还是会联络的…

可能我的离开 会让我们更加靠近…

减少不必要的摩擦 （其实现在也没有摩擦），但是公私不分的感觉不是很好… 不喜欢

各自发展… 彼此支持… 不是更好吗？

希望我一切顺利! 

我们就享受当下… 顺其自然

当我觉得我可以了, 我也会勇敢走去！

太阳花 照亮我们的生活，美丽我们的人生… 我希望我有在你的生活添加色彩…

一起加油吧！

7th of July

Yeah! 今天是槟城假期！没有工作！

陪Cindy 搞到自己累到…

算了… 朋友嘛！

看到她，我脑海里又有另一种领悟…

她因为爱情搞到自己借酒消愁… 还吐

为什么搞到这样…

回想我失恋时也很堕落… 但是还好我还算理智… 最严重是哭到不像人… 哈哈

我庆幸我用2个月的时间走出来… 祖母，我知道你在保佑我… 你的离去让我醒悟… 

男朋友不是你生命最重要的… 

看看他如何对我… 我以前太笨了!

这几个月过得蛮开心的！

开心多过不开心… 

庆幸认识一班很愉快，很照顾我的同事… 

认识更多人… 

最近，慢慢的肯定自己心里的想法… 

是，我是喜欢他…

但是，我现在不敢面对爱情…

有恐惧感…

当我靠近他我的心跳会跳的很快… 

以前都没有这样的感觉… 

有时候觉得在初恋的感觉… 爱情萌芽的感觉… 似有似无… 暧昧… 一点点东西就开心到… 

我的天… 我既然有这样的感觉…

跟他真的太多相似… 我有时候真的不能相信… 

他说爱情对他不是现在… 我也不敢行动什么…

身边的朋友都一直卖他的好… 我也不知道要给什么反应…

有人说我们行为就像一对情侣… “难道你们两没有感觉吗？”

我现在开始享受单身… 两个人没有责任的做好朋友也不错嘛？！ 彼此鼓励和关心对方… 一起朝自己的目标迈进!

如果说有人爱与疼自己，哪个女生不要呢？ 但这些都要看缘分和时机…

爱情… 一门学不完的学问…

今天 Michael 生日… 生日快乐！！

Is July...

While accompany a rich+siao cha bo...

Always make me broke..

She now is drunk...

She was crazy on drunking after she get broke up...

She always like tat... Not taking care on herself...

Put love on her priority..

Why must need a lover?!

Her mood all depends on love?! Why?!

Why dun do somethings for your own not bcos of your lover?!

Sigh.... I feel she hurt...

Wat can i do just accompany her!! 

While i know she still love her ex...

I know wat type of guys she want...

Pls dun threaten me with my deep deep secrect... I am week on it!! I not dare to intro any guys for u d...

30th of June

Since 20th of January I enter OCBC having my internship...

I gain alots!! Train up myself to work on when i am super down moment!!

I am stand up still!! 

Office politics office talk more to see.. Till more to learn!!

Hope i am gaining in the right path and be improve always!!

Blessing!!

The most valuable i gain is a gang of nice colleague!

All treat me as a small small girl!! 

1 more month to go!! I start miss it!!

The GAME: Clash of Clans

I start play tis game from early of 2014...

Starting i was randomly ply.

Coincidently, i meet a badge of colleague ply on it als.

So i join their clan to be group together.

Tis game is one of the game i play quite long. 

Even candy crush i play 6 months and stop ady. I feel i cnt stand on an game such long one.

The longest game tat i play from before till now i think is soduku only kua?! Muahaha

Well today we hving battle day and lose ady.

The 1st time we lose in our war... 

Well strong enemy i would like to said.