爱上了 某某某!!!

just finish the cal from Sandra... haiz...

Sandra - one of my best fren in work..

she is elder than me, but we does't have any gap.. hehe..

i always hear she say like tis like tat.. and i always cnt remember all the name she say.. i just set b1 b2 b3...

but from our last chit-chat..

last saturday at genting...

she keep on talking Kelvan...make me remember.. i als feel tis name is vy different with other...

tis name is the 1st name i remember (sandra say)

sandra say she have state over 30 names.. in front of me.. haha..

i know sandra about 3 year ady... we stay together before.. we get scold together b4..

we als sleep together.. haha..

i feel that Sandra not like Kelvan , she love Kelvan ady..

tis year my feeling is getting vy correct... i think i get correct kua...

actually i dislike the feeling i get is correct.. cos i dun like the result of my feel come true.. haiz..

hope i will not get the feeling very "zhun" liao...!!! dunwan dunwan dunwan...

爱上 Tawau , 不舍得离开！

my colleague say i love the island at Tawau here not Tawau lah... haha
it is true.. dunno!!
but i really love the island over here - Mataking island and Sipadan island

i like the view on Sipadan..
but
i love the view on Mataking..
Mataking is damn nice... that big mataking and small mataking...
only at certain time we go small mataking by walk..
cos the road to cross will disappear and came out in certain time..
lolz..
hard to describe here..
wait my picture lah!!

after few hour i will back to penang ady..
i will get fly back alone.. haiz...
other crew fly back kl... haiz...

hope i can have a trip to Tawau on next year.. hehe!!

忘记有那么难吗？

暗恋，这个行为我已经克制自己不去进行了... 因为这很不真实！
但有时候我还是会不经意去喜欢某某人！
现在我已经接受会他，我应该忘记那个他...
幸好，他不喜欢看别人的 blog ，因为他很现实，他也不知道我这个 blog add!
那是因为我还有无名... haha
blog just a thing (a die thing), people is alive... by HIM
the HIM is not mean him, his name is HIM (ZI HIM)

but 现在有时候还是会想他...
在一个特别情况下我好像知道那个他知道我喜欢他，而他说不可能... haiz..
dunno he is talking about me or not.. cos we til chit-chat like normal..
now we still keep in touch.. so when sms with him, all his pic will pop-out on my mind!!
haiz.. 不想了！想多一点 HIM 让我忘记那个他吧！

忘记 = 不去想!

HIM, feel sorry with you!
i know u sure say nvm and not care bout tis post..
cos we is start over again... and is not stable very much!!
now we are big different like before but.. i will try hard to make us to be better!
i know u sure say.. just do my best and 勉强没有幸福 (u will say it, if u saw tis post...) haha!!

Tawau

wao...
Tawau, Sabah!
i have totally no idea about this place!
i will busy around here for 3 days.. if not mistake i will go through 2 pulau / pantai..

here have nice view..
i want have a trip here next time.. need to plan!!
cal fren and come again.. come again for play not for work..
is really hard to copy those the photo i have take..
cos all the photo is on my company de cam.. but happy i get use 60D all the days..
they say i cannot copy it and put on my FB or wat.. cos all copyright belong to company..
i hate this words lah - all copyright belong to company..
nvm, since company lend me digi boardband.. i dun kira with company liao..

29th whole day is busy with take photo and reply message..
dunno why today so many ppl sms me.. best buddy, fren, my dear and senior.. lolz.. busy with two phone..

i wonder another thing...
this end of the year i always get the easy job, and i love to done the job although whole day face the computer and always run my mind to came out idea to edit this and that..
today i get praise by director.. and i get chance to work in art team.. yeah... is surprise job..
originally i m in the accommodation and food team de... wuhuu haha..
feel happy i can learn new thing... and holding dslr again...haha

i really love dslr.. but no extra money to let me buy leh =(
he say he wan buy one for me.. but i reject, cos that is not a small money... i just say u let me play your dslr can ady...^.^

really happy! the photo i take and the idea i say are get praise by a lot of ppl!!
this time i meet a lot new colleague.. i onli know one..
nvm.. time will let us know better!!

想念

前天上山过了一天，见到很多偶像- 丁当，林宇中，曹格等等... 我爱的几首歌也有得奖... 很开心！
寂寞先生，我不是你想像那么勇敢 等等...

那晚的 job 爽到。。 没有话讲！用公司的 DSLR 拍照，不只是一架叻,而是两架... 一架是 canon de , another is nikon de...  just work wat i love and the thing i always do!
i had take a lot of photo, but cannot publish on my FB.. cos copyright belong to company although is take by me..
and those copyright belong to me wan.. als cannot publish all public-ly
so just put all on my another blog.. my photo blog..
hope that my photo blog can fill up by using DSLR camera..
hope i can have a DSLR camera soon..

the day before saturday, is the time i meet him after a long moment!
i miss him now.. sunday back penang also no time go find him.. but he come to find me...
although just meet a few minute.. i also happy!

just leave penang for one day.. my mum is starting miss me... haiz.. so sunday back penang also need to go back home let my mum see my face...
now i only know that my mum is vy happy i study at penang, and she really not willing to let me go singapore... wuhuu...
anyway.. study at usm is ady a truth.. i hope to study at usm compare to uum.. dislike uum.. cos someone and something is over there...

just now.. saw another ppl in relationship with another ppl liao... i ady saw 2pair couple after exam liao..
just one word.. walau..
just past 1 semester only can in relationship so fast.. and i saw quite a lot is same year d.. 1st year with 1st year.. lolz.. =.='''
if i din get back with him.. i think i will thinking to 检讨 myself lolz..

think back myself..
my fren had say, i m too strong ady.. sometime is stronger than boy..
so?? hard to find ppl is stronger than me??
i strong meh?? no lah...
i need protection als.. and i need a shoulder too...

erm.. think back our past..
he always say.. why i am different than those girls are in relationship?!
what is the different? he say : why u din always keep control to me de??
he said i let him very free to do his thing... 不整天粘着他!
then i say, no good meh?! hehe..
actually, i think that you ar good thinker, u no need i worried and i believe on you!
and u help me and care me a lot.. is much more than i care u!
sorry i din care u always.. i will learn how to care u!! hehe!!

later i need to fly.. yeah.. happy..
fly to Tawau!! new place! i din go before!!
but is going to work not a trip..
enjoy my work.. enjoy my life!! =)

1st time wrote blog at Genting Highland..

1st, need to thanks the boardband from company.. so that i can blogging at genting here.. haha
today- 27th nov
is the easy job i get in this year!! i just need to keep update the latest new to the facebook, take picture and arrange and convert the picture to small file.. tat all.. 爽!

then at the last minute my schedule is mess.. now change alot..
27th go genting
28th go back Penang (is work d) but hope got extra time go back home or how..
29th flight to Tawau , 1st time fly to Sabah there leh.. din go before leh..
then
2nd Dec back Penang! then is my rest time lol...
dunno y cancel fly to sarawak... haiz.. i m not d decision maker...

sleepy now..
but have a lot interesting want to write..
haiz.. nvm i write next time lah..
^nite nite^
miss u ♥

Happy days...

today morning, we get finish plan and practice all the dance steps.. now just need to make it all step standard and better...

then go back home sleep a while.. then 3pm go fetch Sher Lan go airport...
wish her have a nice trip...

capture by pokok ru... he is charm with his cam!!

evening and night is the time be with u!!
happy get together with u and meet your fren after dinner als..
u make me happy , let me play your dslr and i learn something about dslr from u too..
i know u start use dslr since last year...
but this is the 1st time u get close and touch your dslr - Canon EOS 60D & Nikon (forget wat series, cos i keep on play canon EOS.. haha!!)
whole night nonstop chitchat and play dslr with you.. i love it ♥♥♥

u till always give every care to me... u know i need to wake up early 2mr,so send me home vy early...
we just can meet for a short moment only... but i enjoy it... hope i can plan a trip go to find u!!
i miss U, my dear!!
until now i also not sure get back with is a correct decision or not...
em... watever lah just enjoy every moment with you... tat all..

SHE and HE

♥ HER

♥ HIM

♥ My 1st SLR shoot... love tis cake vy much als...

....he is good in capture ♥...

holiday with my lovely frens..

as i grow up.. i know more and more friends..
25th Nov is the most free day after final exam... but i make it full with hang out.. haha.. fun!
25th Nov, today went out with my usm penang friend...

25th Nov, whole noon fun at 1st avenue - the new mall in penang (open on 25th nov)
i explore the mall with Sher Lan and Yi Ning first,
then sing k with Angie, Sher Lan, Yi Ning, Jean Ray, Guendeline, Xuxu, Chong Mun, Ah Khay and Yu Heng...
we all is penang ppl except Jean Ray.. cos she have't go back hometown, so she get lucky hang out with us.. haha...
but not everyone enjoy having the coupon for rm1 offer... so most ppl is sing with student price.. hehe..
today i let off a lot of stress at sing k... plan to go sing RM 1 next time again.. before 18 dec..
THANKS to xuxu organize this outing again..
LUCKily meet Phaik Leng and her mum at there als.. hehe

25th Nov, evening till night get fun at queensbay with Sher Lan , Kel Wen and ah Yap (Peng Khoon)

have a nice talk with them... and Sher Lan buy me a dinner at Kim Gary hehe.. cos she want to thanks me 1st.. for fetching her go airport on 26th Nov.. wish her have a nice trip at KL lah..
four of us had a movie on 9.35pm.. that movie.. not nice.. damn bored... haiz... pick wrong movie..
oh! and i receive souvenir from ah yap... cos he go Langkawi... hehe... thanks ah YAP!




sad, this moment hard to hang out with my secondary and form 6 frens.. cos most of them is study at UUM..
there having exam now... wish all of them good luck lah...
today hang out whole day with my dear sher lan..
although i just get know Sher Lan just a short moment (since this early semester)... but we get fren very fast..
our friendship is getting thicker and thicker... haha..
♥ my life ♥ Friends ♥

FULL

24th.. whole day full of activity...
morning 8am wake up.. go clean my dirty car... feel good after wash it.. but tired..

my senior is cal me go back uni (RST) by 1030 to help to settle recycle thing...
then 1200 go eat lunch with those senior come to prepare the promo video..
then go dk foyer discuss and take video..
haha.. originally they want to take video by using my cam.. but suddenly found tat Ian go Sony NEX-3, so use the better quality d cam lah... haha...
but dunno why.. today only have one 1st year ppl attend.. and that is me..
although only i am the 1st yr junior... but gain a lot of fun with senior-s..
they treat me nice als... i am 1st yr ppl onli mah... but sometime they bully me als... bluckk..
aiya.. is like tat wan...small sure get bully by big... haha
fun with them, take photo with them.. enjoy with them...

i now sure that u will come back on 26th evening.. happy and wait to meet u.. although i only and meet u on few hours onli.. and u meet me with your tired body..
haiz... my job is fixed jor.. cannot delay... so just meet in short and peace..
and december u r going back liao.. sad...
get back with you.. dunno is right decision or not.. i till confuse... anyway just enjoy every moment with u!

tis few week... some weird thing make me.. dunno how to handle.. just have fun together... i should dun care wat other ppl say.. just enjoy.. hope tis weird weird thing won't make our friendship weird weird als.. if that will have another kind of relationship, that time only think it lah... now just enjoy my holiday and work life..
is weird lah...

happy tat 2PM is coming to asia for promote their new album... they are going to singapore... since 22nd nov the call-in game is start.. but i din success ko.. keep on try tis few day.. hope i can won it!!

while i am blogging... in other side.. i am practicing dance with my dear gud fren..
need to work hard for the competition... and need to plan for another com too.. ah ru, kar yao o!

today is damn sleepy today cos.. last nite, did many plan.. and sleep late..
plan my AS schedule lah.. plan my time table for this week.. i need to confirm every 11pm i am free to practice.. my KL trip for my friends.. plan to go play, gathering , go Uni settle hostel thing.. haiz.. many thing.. just follow my plan..

wuu.. 27th wanna leave penang liao... a bit excited cos i wan go sabah and sarawak liao.. 1st time.. yeah..
but go work not play...

2mr 25th nov.. 1st avenue open liao.. my fren is planning go there.. hope there will on lah... go sing k!! go shop new mall... yeah!!

just enjoy what i have now.. dun think too much..

spend 2 hours to finish tis post.. cos write liao practice then write then practice.. haha

Happy to get your msg..

woo... is midnight... suddenly u msn me on tis midnight... unexpected..
tat time u should sleep cos next day u having test..
get a bit shock.. cos tat time is chatting with my senior...
(but they away want me mention as fren not senior.. cos too serious...)

shock tat.. u msg me... and tel me.. u wanna back soon... happy u coming back...
then we can talk or chit-chat face-to-face... no need talk in msn onli...

i miss u!! kaleumen...
welcome back...!! <3

oo... is my time...

happy u will come back soon... really miss you...
is my time to play and back to my work life...
although is was stress but i enjoy and i love to do..

love really color-blind..
overnight at friends house again.. whole nite keep on practice really make me tired.. haiz..
hope we can won sometime...

no music no life!
no DANCE no life too!!

朋友，哭过就好了....

喜欢 + 爱 = 你和他/她

喜欢一个人的时候快乐多一点，即使是忧愁也是淡淡的。
爱一个人的时候痛苦多一点，即使是甜蜜也总是涩涩的。
爱就一个字，喜欢俩个字，喜欢的人可以很多，而你所爱的人却总是唯一。
喜欢是一种简单，爱却总是那么复杂，喜欢是随便说说。
爱总是难以说出口，说不清也道不明… 
你可以一分钟去喜欢一个人，却要用一生瞑记你的爱。
喜欢只是一种随意感触，而爱会让你多一份幸福的牵挂。
喜欢只有一斤重，而爱却有千斤，万斤重。爱是要承担责任的，是沉重的。
你可以同时喜欢一千个一万个，却不能同时爱上两个人，真的爱上一个人，你就爱上了沉重。
你已经没有多余的感情来给别人。
爱一个人就要爱她的灵魂，爱，可以以生命为代价。
有的人一生中有无数的情人，但却没真正爱过谁，有的人却能爱一个人到永远，爱是远比喜欢要吸引很多的感情，要不然，这世上哪来这么多痴男和怨女！
喜欢是不爱的一种狡辩！
爱是喜欢的进化，喜欢是欣赏对方的优点。
而爱是包容对方的缺点。
喜欢一个人就是想占有他/她，爱一个人总是想让他/她占有自己！

23rd Nov 2010

woo.. 1st day.. after final exam...
many activity need to run... haiz..
busy life cannot simply pause... need to continue.. so you only can success..

wEnRu ♥ Pokok RU

my S.T.U.D.Y. life...

take on 1st day of study week -30.10.2010

Study Financial Accounting with Clorets ^.^

Starting emo and ki siao liao =.=

Study b.stat... love my calculator! @.

the snack accompany my study life...

i love milk.. milk! milk!

=( i wan sleep liao!!

100 plus.. give my exam get 100 plus plus... woo..

milk milk milk...

food food.. 

supper...

woo... so fast..

time really go so fast, now already 22nd November 2010...
my 1st semester of my 1st year University life is reach the end...
happy cos is finish..
sad cos dunno how to face my 2nd sem.. and my final exam d result..
ai ya.. dun think 1st.. enjoy wat i hv now 1st..
woo..
22nd Nov i sat for my last paper of this final exam of this semester..woo
the paper having on morning, so u think i can vy enjoy after sat this paper.. not so lolz..
i still need to crazy about the recycle event..
haiz.. damn it.. but need to do it..
dunno why i gt pick to manage this event for bakti and fajar hostel..
all other is 2nd year wan.. only i m the one 1st yr busy a lot with this..
i feel dat onli those get pick to manage this event and those high pose ppl in doing onli lolz...
haiz.. and i cn see tat 1st no much ppl is busy with this.. haiz..
should i happy cos i get regard highly..
or should i sad cos i need to do this stuff... haiz.. reason bcos i m penang ppl and i got car to drive..
lolz... dun wan drive liao lah... wait other fecth me lah... =((

woo.. after busying collect this and that from RST, IK anf Fajar...
it time to let me enjoy my time with my dear uni fren...
2day went out with Soey, Jenny and Siew Ping..
i m like a tour guide, guide soey drive here and there.. bring them walk here and there..
but fun lah.. go shopping with them...

woo.. hang out time is not the end yet..need hang out with other.. wuu..

o.. need to plan my time table liao..
wat i need to do in this week??

go back uni sort-out all my thing..
collect recycle stuff from fren and steal some from other.. haha..
dance practise...
packing my thing to ready go kl..
plan trip with my frens..
gathering (next week only c how lah)

the most important is dance practise, cos the competition is near..
and competition in uni dunno wan join bo... haiz.. hard and no time to think lolz..

full activity..
wish pokok ru have a colorful life...

22-11

no words , just picture... tat's all...

Ki Siao day but Wonderful night...

Yesterday (19-11-2010)
Crazy day..
MORNING.. hard to wake up.. cos headache (cos late and not enough sleep)..
actually plan to wake up early to study my b.stat again & again.. but i din get wake so early..

AFTERNOON.. 2smth pm.. i drove car go back uni to sit b.stat paper..
tis paper not easy.. really hard.. kill off my cellsssss...
hope i won't failed this paper..
b.stat paper.. 3pm - 6pm..

EVENING.. Xuxu is planing a dinner for us.. can call it gathering als... cn be..
need to thanks Xuxu make tis chance to let us know each other lolz..
love and get fun with them.. Sher Lan, Ling Yi, Xin Xin, Sebrina lah.. and many guys too..
hope we can get more and more fun in our uni life..
Soey, my dear hostel friend.. although she is not my roommate but our friendship is getting thicker than other..
Jenny reject to accompany with Soey at the last minute, and Soey hv a bit mind to not attending tis dinner / gathering als.. but at the end she go.. cos she gt persuade by me... haha.. no regret and gain fun, although tried.. tried cos.. i need to drove to butterworth there... and i don't know there very much.. keke...

need nice sleep.. and..
continue fight for my last paper for tis sem..
kar yao ar..
Hwaiting... Hwaiting...

i wondering how long we did't meet...

how long... hard to calculate... many many hours..
when i saw u.. i become simpleminded.. dunno wat to say.. say stupid thing.. hehe.. why?
mayb because i am concern your feeling than the topic we talk... miss you..!

as the day going on.. the degree of missing you is increased...

Tired day..

16-11-2010

tis day is important.. because today is my mummy birthday..
my mun say the best birthday present for her is wen ru stay healthy and study hard for future..
as my brother enter local u and something say local u is better then private u..
my parent was wishing me to enter local u..

after and during form 5/ SPM, I am not willing to enter form 6..
but something is making me to enter form 6.. and i need to accept and work it..
many of my friend had mention i am more hard-working than Form 5..
i think that are because i study F6 in another environment.. new environment.. and..
i leave out many responsible also.. make me not so busy..

wau.. today.. what had happen leh??
sit ITM paper lolz.. kisiao with that paper lolz..
busy collect recycle thing from friends lolz..
send those recycle thing to the committee lah..
feel like be fooled.. but is ok lah.. just do it..

mayb just now get some rain.. now headache liao..
need nice sleep..

i still miss you! waiting for you, my dear...

this is me...

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